Fix Me
October 26, 2009 6:02pm
I feel like I'm burning at the stake
Only I 'm clinging to it
Like it's my sanity
My heart is beating
Out of my chest
And I am sweating …
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PugLover804
11:02am, October 21, 2009
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About Me
PugLover804
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About Me
My name is Leigh-Ann and I am 26. I have bipolar disorder with mixed episodes and rapid cycling. I also have wicked bad anxiety. Right now I'm very depressed and having panic attacks. I hate my job, because i have to deal with the public and it makes me mentally sick. I constantly beat myself up inside for every mistake that I make. I can barely go out by myself. I'm a mess. Sometimes I feel like I'm not strong enough to handle the burden that God has placed on me. I try to have faith and tell myself that i was born with this stuff for a reason. But I feel lost. I just don't know what to do.
My name is Leigh-Ann and I am 26. I have bipolar disorder with mixed episodes and rapid cycling. I also have wicked bad anxiety. Right now I'm very depressed and having panic attacks. I hate my job, because i have to deal with the public and it makes me mentally sick. I constantly beat myself up inside for every mistake that I make. I can barely go out by myself. I'm a mess. Sometimes I feel like I'm not strong enough to handle the burden that God has placed on me. I try to have faith and tell myself
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Interests
Faith, family, friends, the supernatural, rocking out to music in my car, chilling out with my husband, watching TV, playing with my pug, traveling, watching movies (everything but horror), surfing the internet, Facebook, reading, and a bunch of other stuff I can't remember at the moment.
Faith, family, friends, the supernatural, rocking out to music in my car, chilling out with my husband,
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The Burn
October 26, 2009 5:57pm
I'm crying again
Feeling worthless again
I thought the tears that escape me
Were supposed to make me feel better
Instead I feel worse
How many tears …
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My mind is on fire, and my body's in quick sand.
October 21, 2009 11:21am
I'm up, and racing.
My body is doing 200 mph,
Trying to catch up to my head.
I feel like a tornado,
Leaving a path of perfection,
Or …
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I never claimed it was a good poem.
October 11, 2009 5:24pm
I feel like a weight has been placed on my shoulders.
And is dragging me down into the abyss of my own hell.
The tears stream down my face like a leaky …
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A new plan
November 21, 2008 12:45pm
In case people are reading this and haven't read my last entries, I have a lot of anxiety. So much tht it disables me in my life. I saw …
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I’m With You
sorry your not feeling too well
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Thinking of you!
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It doesn't matter.The main thing is you're here now. I hope you start feeling better Leigh. I wish I could stay and chat a while but I have an endocrinologist appointment this morning. Take care of yourself, and draw strength wherever you can. Feel better sweetie
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YOu will get through this...my husband suffers from everything you have, so I kinda feel your pain...keep your chin up
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I'm 24 and i Have been bipolar since i was a child. I am on medication and working on it.
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- Usually helps with my depression.
- Ativan Not Working
- It didn't do anything for my anxiety.
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- I take it for my anxiety.
- Geodon Not Working
- This made me way too tired to function.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- Has been working for years.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Has been working for years.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- I'm taking 700mg to 750mg a day and it seems to be working.
- Tegretol Not Working
- I was on this for years but my illness changed and it stopped doing anything.
- Topamax Not Working
- Had an allergic reaction to it.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I take it when I'm depressed.
- Neurontin Working / Worked
- Im on it right now or my anxiety.
Open Anxiety
I have a lot of anxiety because of my BP disorder. I beat myself up alot because of it.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- It doesn't work.
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- It helps.
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- It helps alot.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I try really hard.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was molested as a child and then raped at 17.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- My husband went through almost the same situation
- Topamax Not Working
Open Bisexuality
I'm bisexual but the only person that knows about it is my husband.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Having Panic attacks working with the public at my job.
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
Every sepmber and october my bipolar disorder gets worse, because of the lack of sunshine. So I tend to get sick.
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