Journal

I signed up for classes and I'm ready to go this fall! Yay! I've never felt so independent and proud of myself. I'm a little scared but so excited!

I've been struggling with anxiety and panic attacks since I can remember, fighting every step of the way, and hating every minute of it. After a few therapy sessions (which I plan to continue once I find another psychologist), lots of research, making a huge move closer to my family, and getting my medications worked out, I think I'm finally on my way to self-acceptance and maybe even self-love. I'm not sure which of the listed things deserves more credit, but I feel much more calm and evened out lately--even though there are lots of stressful things going on. I know I cannot be happy and feel "perfect" every hour of the day, and just accepting THAT makes things so much easier!

I finally got all my application and paperwork in for college(after being scared for years to commit to it), and I was quickly accepted into 2 local colleges. I just have to choose which I'd like to go to now!  I start this fall, and I will be starting a Pharmacy Tech internship on top of that! I take my advanced placement tests a week from today, and I've been studying my arse off! Wish me luck!