A Mother's Grief (poem)
August 21, 2009 9:34pm
My friend Amy sent me this poem today and I just had to share it with all of you.
A Mother's Grief You ask me how I'm feeling, …
Goal Completed on Jan 1, 09
StephaniePaige
2:40pm Tuesday
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About Me
StephaniePaige
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About Me
I have been married for 5 years to my best friend. I am a stay at home mom and an artist. I have three children; Madeline in my heart, Benjamin in my arms, and Nathaniel in my womb. I recently started a charity organization for bereaved parents called the Sweet Pea Project (www.sweetpeaproject.org) I still ache for Madeline desperately, but I am now seeing the beauty she left in this world. It is a better place because of her, and I am a better person because of her.
I have been married for 5 years to my best friend. I am a stay at home mom and an artist. I have three children; Madeline in my heart, Benjamin in my arms, and Nathaniel in my womb. I recently started a charity organization for bereaved parents called the Sweet Pea Project (www.sweetpeaproject.org) I still ache for Madeline desperately, but I am now seeing the beauty she left in this world. It is a better place because of her, and I am a better person because of her.
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Interests
painting, sculpting, writing, anything art-related, hiking, camping, backpacking, etc. Writing and painting have really helped me get through the dark days.
painting, sculpting, writing, anything art-related, hiking, camping, backpacking, etc. Writing and painting
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Sending lots of hugs your way:) How have you been doing?
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Again, thanks Stephanie. I just want this nightmare to be over, and for me to be holding this baby in my arms. I have to believe that this time, it will be alright because I've got wonderful friends on DS all praying for me and because Olivia and Ben would never let anything happen to their little brother or sister. I just have to believe.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you so much for your comment to my journal entry! You have given me the hope I so badly needed. I'm lucky to have such a sensible, wonderful friend to lighten my path to recovery :) I started crying when you described the moments that made your heart burst with happiness, and I cannot wait to experience the same with my little ones. It will take time, hard work, tears and sweat, but I need to believe I will get there one day as well. And I will keep the sadness separate from this happiness. One thing at a time :) Lots of love, Laura
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Hi sweetie,
I feel like it has been ages since we connected - or since I have written and I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you, the boys and Maddy. How is everything? Have you been painting lately?
Love and hugs
Pia xoxoxo
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Thank you for your journal comment. I just hit such a low point and it just hit really fast. I haven't cried that hard in a while. I mean I cry here and there, but nothing like the other night. Today is a bit better. I think I just need to revamp my thinking right now. I've been going in to each month trying to convince myself that it won't happen, so when it doesn't I won't be disappointed. I think I need to go in to each month with a more positive, more whatever happens happens kind of attitude. If I get a BFN, then I will be sad and then I will have to move on. I don't know. I will give it a shot. Anyway, hope you are enjoying Halloween with your baby boys. I know Madeline is looking down at her baby brothers and is just enjoying watching them in their costumes! I just want to let you know I think about Madeline and you all the time. Love to you and the family-Heather
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildMy daughter died unexpectedly after 41 weeks of complication free pregnancy. The autopsy revealed nothing. I am so lost without her.
Close Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility
My daughter Madeline was stillborn at 41 weeks in Jan07. I had a successful subsequent pregnancy in 2008, Madeline's little brother Ben. I have just embarked on my second subsequent pregnancy, due Sept 12, and the anxiety has returned full force.
Treatments
- Writing Working / Worked
- The journal will be a keepsake no matter what the outcome is, but I try very hard to believe I will share it with my new baby someday
Open Stillbirth
My pregnancy was totally complication free. At 40 wks & 4 days they told us we could induce but we decided to give her 1 more week. 2 days later we found out our baby was gone. After over 20 hours of labor I finally got to hold my little girl, Madeline, in my arms for the first and last time.
Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)
I am the proud mother of two amazing children, one that I carry in my arms and one that I carry in my heart. Madeline was stillborn at 41 weeks on Jan 5th, 2007. Her little brother, Ben, brought color back into my world when he was born on Jan 11th, 2008.
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- Attachment Parenting Working / Worked
- Breast Feeding Working / Worked
- Patience Working / Worked
