SueJean's Journal

Yesterday's gig went well.  I did some face painting and temporary tatoos for a company picnic at Consol Energy Park.  I did miss an extented family birthday party, though.  The parents were okay with me not being there.  They understood that sometimes work interfers with family events as they themselves are performers... musicians.

I'm feeling better.  A combination of things is helping; I'm grateful to God. 

One day at a time.

I'm part of a panel today at the 10 AM Al-Anon meeting.  I'll portray two children:  the invisible child as well as the entertainer/ "hey, look at me!" child.  I hope it goes over well and that those w/ young children understand that they can still change some things that have never really worked.  They still have opportunities to change their behavior and spare their children unnecessary grief, pain, fear, resentment, anger, and hate. 

As I recall my mother's unacceptable behavior, I feel rather certain that she's undiagnosed Bipolar Disorder.  It is genetic; so, I didn't just catch it.  I also suspect that my great grandmother on my mother's side also was Bipolar.  This is helping me to view my mother through softer eyes.  I regret that we're unable to have a relationship as she, as well as my father,  remains abusive.