lovingheart777's Journal

My name is Stacie, I currently live with my boyfriend and his parents, we will be moving in to our own apartment January 3rd.. Hopefully it will be easier there, I am trying to get my life back on the right track by going to church, readin my bible.  Although I am kinda doing this backwards, it still doesnt make life easy when you know that you are living in sin and doing things in sin.. You know has my life begins to turn around the harder things seem to get.  I know that no one is perfect we all have our reasons for doing the things we choose to do but it really doesnt make it right.. My mistake was leaving my home in texas just because I was thinking that me having a man could solve ALL of my problems but instead it doesnt.. I left my spiritual support to be with a man that isnt even a christian, You may wonder why I have chosen this life is because I fell in love with this man.. No he cant take my pain away or even fill the void in my heart, and though I may not be completely happy with him, I know that there is always a chance for God to turn things around and make it all worth going through.. So its time for me to quit running from my problems and face what may lie ahead and allow God to work in my life and pray for him in the process.. This isnt easy for me, but nothing in life is supposed to be easy, you will always have to work toward the things in life that will help you succeed to make you a better person and as for me, that is exactly where I am at..  Trying to show friends around me that I am not this bad person and that I am strong enough to face my problems without having to run, and as for my friend back in Texas, I need her.. She is still my support and my guideline, but she cant be there for me everytime I fall, I know she wants to be but I cant let her anymore.. Sometimes I have to fall and sometimes I have to fall hard in order for me to see my mistakes.. But its not my friends or my boyfriend that I need to be my strong tower when I am weak, I need God and his guidence to show me the way.. You cant get to heaven by hanging on someones skirt-tail, I have to make that choice and choose my own path, but it is always good to have people in your life that is a christian and that can help guide you and keep you on the right path..