Journal

so i lost a bunch of weight and then gained some ... im about 7 pounds up from my recent low....which isnt terrible.  it could hav been 10 easily.  now is the time to stop and do something about my situation.  i want to lose weight ... i want to feel good, be healthy, hav more energy and look better in my clothes.  i hav some adorable outfits that dont fit anymore that i would love to wear.  i hav some designer clothes that were really expensive and it's going to be so much fun to be able to put them on again.  i used to lov the way i looked in my clothes.  i want that feeling back.  none of my bigger sizes look that good on me nor are they very good quality. 

i need to get back to my healthy eating and my exercise.  i need to get back into a routine.  im really confident i can do this.  i just need a little bit of will power.  the nite seems to be the hardest time.  i just hav to try not to hav bad food in the house.  i really wanted something sweet tonight and all i had in the house were 30 calorie choclate pops and low fat peanut butter.  i had too much peanut butter but all in all it wasnt bad.  i could hav been much worse if i had the bad stuff in the house.  i hav to be really with myself and realize that i can cave if i see the bad stuff in front of me or in the pantry. it's hard sometimes because the family likes the bad stuff but im the one doing the shopping and if theyre not eating as much junk it's just as well for them.  my hubby can eat his cookies at work and my kids can hav pretzels for a snack instead of graham crackers.  for some reason the pretzels dont tempt me too much but those graham crackers are almost as good as cookies.

anyway ... thank you for reading.  we can do this.  we're all on this journey together.  i get inspiration from all of you who are so strong and are doing so well.  i want to be strong too. 

ill let you know how it goes.

take care....eteh