Journal Entry for April 15, 2009
Oh man ive had a horrible day. Jacob screamed the WHOLE way from downtown to my house. Everyone was staring at me . I was practically running up the …
A man found an eagles nest and put it in a nest of a barnyard hen. The eaglet hatched with the brood of chicks and grew up with them. All his life the eagle did what the barnyard chicks did, thinking he was a barnyard chicken. He scratched the earth for worms and insects. He clucked and cackled. And he would thrash his wings and fly a few feet into the air. Years passed and the eagle grew very old. One day he saw a magnificent bird above him in the cloudless sky. It glided in graceful majesty among the powerful wind currents, with scarcely a beat of it's strong golden wings. The old eagle looked up in awe. "Who's that?" he asked. "That's the eagle, the king of the birds, " said his neighbour. "He belongs to the sky. We belong to the earth-we're chickens" So the eagle lived and died a chicken, for that's what he thought he was. Anthony De Mello - Question things, be aware of who you are and what you could achieve if you just took the step and tried. Failure is just an opinion
A man found an eagles nest and put it in a nest of a barnyard hen. The eaglet hatched with the brood of chicks and grew up with them. All his life the eagle did what the barnyard chicks did, thinking he was a barnyard chicken. He scratched the earth for worms and insects. He clucked and cackled. And he would thrash his wings and fly a few feet into the air. Years passed and the eagle grew very old. One day he saw a magnificent bird above him in the cloudless sky. It glided in graceful majesty among
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Oh man ive had a horrible day. Jacob screamed the WHOLE way from downtown to my house. Everyone was staring at me . I was practically running up the …
Im always here alone on saturday night. I buy all the junk food for tonight in the morning and wait til she goes out and then eat it al and throw it …
The tears wont stop
why do i have to eat so much rubbish!!!!!!!!!!!! bread and cake and juice im on the verge of screaming. i can feel the rolls of fat when i sit down …
Sometimes i just wish food didnt even exsist.
Pls read my journal entry for today. Did they remove my messages from your mailbox too?I have several confirmations that they are going to my friends' mail, and removing my personal e-mails! Good grief. I would not be surprised if they closed my account altogether. Please send me a personal e-mail address just in case!
hi, your baby is beautiful and so are you!
hope your okay xxx
Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure.
Kal Menninger
Happy Belated Birthday Ailie... I hope You are doing Well !!! Have not seen much of You for a while..... How are You Doing Love ?
Miss seeing you online.....but that could also be a good sign that you are doing well and that you don't need the site as much. I bet that baby is getting big. I do hope all is well.
I didn't realise drinking was causing a lot of emotional and physical damage to myself until early 07. I would binge drink on roughly 5 days out the 7 and spend 2 days sobbing through anxiety and sleepless nights. Not to mention i was utterly uncontrollable on alcohol and ended up in situations that so nearly lost me my life.At the present i've been sober the longest time in my history of drinking and focusing on bringing a healthy baby into the world. Thats where i get my will power from.
Having had problems with restricting and obsessive excercise in high school and being very thin i was severly depressed when people started to comment on a little weight gain. I really couldn't control the amount i was eating but found i didnt feel so awful if i threw it back up. So on a daily basis i would binge/purge but became more depressed and gained more weight.I still slip up now and again but because of the baby i force myself to eat and keep it down. Even if its chocolate!
This problem started when i was quite young. Maybe around 13. Mixed in with an alcohol problem later on the cuts became deeper and more dangerous resulting in hospital trips and a lot of skin damage.I havent actually done anything recently but it was a total of 6 years that i did cut.There was a period between 16-18 that for some reason i didn't do it.I've yet to pin point that exact reason.
I've been bulimic for over a year now.I just wish that i wasn't but im addicted
Due oct 9th .. baby boy.
It seemed to stop working but i'm having his baby. I'm so sad every day . I know he's moved on .. im trying the same but it just doesnt feel right . Sometimes i just feel like giving up.
Jacob has been feeding on demand for 9 days now. He feeds a lot!! I initially had milk fever so was very ill but managed to overcome the pain and symptoms and continued to feed. Now feeding is more regulated but still find it very tiring as it is completely led by him .
i had my baby boy Jacob on 2.10.08.one week early