I am having a horrible. day. I …
I am having a horrible. day. I don't know what to do anymore. and it seems like no one cares
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cjsmama12907 
12:20pm, September 1, 2009
well something bad is happening for me. im scared that right now..i went to the doctor the other day for a regular check up thingy and they told me that i have abnormal cells on my cervix...that scares me, i have a 1 in 3 chance that i have a cervical cancer...that means i wont be able to have children again..there goes my chances of happyness..I thought that i wouldnt have gotten ahold of something like this, but it happens to people for a reason. i dont know really what to be thinking, maybe i am just worrying myself for no reason, i dont know really what to think about any of this. it was the biggest scare i ever had in my life, and i dont know how to talk to people about it. My mom told me to think about something positive but how is that going to happen when i might not be able to have children. So far my week hasnt been to good, so im dealing with one bad thing after another. and Chris dont know how to talk to me about, or wether or not he knows how to talk to me about things like this anyways...well i asked him if he was off work would he come with me to the doctors and get all the results and everything...he told me if he was off then he would but i dont think i would be able to do this stuff on my own. Chris and me did break up, and i dont think that i could handle it, but this time i havent cried, or anything about it. I think i kinda prepared myself for this, and i think that its the best thing for us right now, things were gettign better better but as time goes by i found out that you get better and then take a turn for the worse. its always happens...I got some questions i need answered..does anyone know where i can get a book about dreams, i have been having this dream over and over again about someone getting killed in a car accident and i cant figure out what this means, I tell chris all the time when we get off the phone to be careful and watch what he is doing, so thats the bestt hing i can do, and i got pissed bout 20 mintues ago, i got my school ring the other day and i now the damn stone in it is loose so i have to send it back, after waiting 6 weeks to get it. So yeah one thing after another, but i guess i gotta suck it up and get over it, but i hope that its just an abnormal thing and i dont have nay kind of cancer....Please pray for me...CJ i love you and miss you little guy!!
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Your in my thoughts and prayers! You have to think positive. You can go to any bookstore and get a book about dreams as I have several of them. I hope everything turns out ok for you.
carrie1012
I heard that when you dream about someone dying a baby will be born. Someone you know pregnant??
sandraSshier
I have a few books about dreams, so i can look this up for you.. see what it says.
I know a few years back my mother had abnormal cells on her cervix and she got them removed. She fine. No cancer or anything like that.
I know there's an 3 dosage shot that girls between i think 13-15 get to prevent cervical cancer. Least there is around here where I live. I've gotten it myself. Dunno if something like that will help you.
When it rains, it pours honey. I went through this a few times. When something bad happens, more bad things happen and it doesn't stop.. at least not for a while. I'm sorry you're going through all of this right now. :(
What's going to happen with the living arrangement between you and Chris?
I will msg you when I look up that info in my book!
Take care.. try to relax and take it easy
xoxo
kapple
i meant 13-25
;)
kapple
will be praying for you.
lvnikita