cjsmama12907's Journal

Boy let me tell you what...Its been forever. I have had so many things happen to me and they have been great. Me and Christopher broke up over 8 months ago, and we are never going to have anything to do with each other. From what i remember it was because i lied to him, when he was the one that cheated on me when i was pregnant. I dont know how that fits into the story. But he got the girl that he cheated on me with and they are broke up now, his reason this time "oh, she was bisexual and i didnt like it" how stupid is that. Umm she is in my class first one of the day and people were talking shit about her, saying she was the bad one...Well me and her dont really get along well and we dont really talk to each other except the normal hey how are you. But guess what i did....I STOOD UP FOR HER!!! I dont know if it was the right thing to do, but it felt as though it was right. she was crying in class and the people still kept on picking on her, i went up to them and told him that they needed to stand up for the one that was right. She was done the same damn way i was and if they are stupid for believing him over her then they are completely insane.

Everything from there was pretty good! He didnt like the fact that i stood up for her. Well guess what, i found a great guy. His name is Saul Ayala...He is of spanish decent. And you know how they always say a spanish man can make a difference....well he did. I am not use to being treated like a princess, being told him beautiful when i feel so ugly, getting stood up for when i feel as though i am being laughed at. I have been with him for a little over 2 and a half months now, and its been great, Christmas was the wierdest thing i have been too. I met his sister and there was so many things that didnt go like i planned. She dont speak much english so there was a real language barrier there. And i felt as though i was doing something wrong because she didnt understand what i was say. Well i understand ALOT and i mean alot of spanish because he only speaks to me in a spanish voice, and i love. My friends dont know what i am saying so that means i dont have to worry about them running their mouths. {kinda mean but its good} My sister is now gained the address called Iraq. It was really hard for my whole entire family. Her children didnt want her to go, but she was plainly just telling them that she was fighting for something that should be understood for the rest of their lives. And i understand that she is doing it. I love having the chance to tell people my sister is a soldier in the US Army. That gives me alot of pride. I miss my sister so much though, she use to be the one that i always talked to when i had a problem but its ok. I love writing her letters and telling her things. She is happy that i am still following my dreams of being a teacher. Its great...my mom told me yesterday that she was happy i am being a good active student and wanting to do something with my life. I want to help children so much with language and help them understand how much they can access in life. Children are the most beautiful things i have ever been able to meet, and i cant wait until the day i have my own. Me and Saul are going to Mexico on the 9th of next month. I am soo excited i will soo keep up with everything. I am going to be getting on here much much more, and staying in touch again....I miss talking to you guys. Yall helped me so much through everything expecially the ones who have angels so close to mine. I love yall!! Bye