cjsmama12907's Journal

Happy Birthday Little Man!

Even though you should already be here

I miss you so much every single day

But i know you have a better home

One that i couldnt have gave

Your father and i arent together

But think nothing as your fault

We love you dearly

Your always in our hearts

You mean the world to me

Your the best thing God could have gave

Even though you were taken i know i'll see you someday

Everyone tells me you know i love you

In the end everything is still perfect as can be

Im always there for you, and your there for me

Someday soon ill see your smile

I think your the best

Mothers day is the hardest of all

But i know your on your way

To bring me a gift

That nobody else can

But it might be small

But it will be all the same

I love you wonderful little man

You taught me everything

Someday ill see you

But ill wait until the end

Let's see today Cj would be 5 months old...And his angel day also. Its very depressing, because there are so many people that i know having their babies and their happy at the house and being with them, but i dont think that its so easy when your missing someone that should be here by now. I love him so much but i wish i could see him, its getting harder everyday but im not going to let that get me down. Im here on this earth for him, and im here to make a statement to the world. Prematurity is the biggest cause of infant loss, but im going to get through this, I am here for me and him as i said before. And i plan to stand for him, and what he wants me to do!