WhiteDolphin's Journal

I became so tired about 6:30pm, but it was too early to go to sleep...so I've stayed awake. I watched TV, and tried to go to sleep at 10pm, it is now 1:47am  I cannot sleep.  I am tired, but I am having lots of muscle spasms all over - legs, arms, neck.  The spasms are strong enough that those parts of my body move..and even if I drift to near sleep, the spasms stop the ability to fall asleep.

I am also sore and achy, and my neck is really bothering me ever since I took clothes out of the washer, I turned my head and that was just enough to set off a flare in my neck and head.

I have a lot of pressure in my head and neck.  My head and neck hurt too much to move it from side to side or look up or down.  It's really horrible.  It hurts to laugh too. I feel like there is so my pressure behind my eyes that they will pop out while I am laughing. My neck feels so swolen.  I can't breathe as well as I should be able to.  Doc told me I had pulmonary obstruction ( I took a pulmonary function test) from severe chest muscle fatigue.  The inhaler I used after the first part of the test did not help my breathing at all.  The second part of the test was same as the first.

My next dr. appointment is in November.  I'm without any money. I'm not able to pick up prescriptions at the pharmacy.  I'm waiting on work's disability insurance to hopefully pay me soon. I've also applied for unemployment. One way or another, I have got to get some money so I can continue medical treatment.

Since I can't go to the doctor, I'm suffering from a sinus infection that I am trying to treat on my own.

In addition to that, my period is late. Haven't had one since Aug 2.  I do not think I am pregnant. I am severely infertile due to PCOS.

I'm frustrated that money is holding me back from medical care.  I can't even afford to do the natural treatments, such as accupuncture and massage.  I couldn't afford them before, and certainly cannot now.  No money = stuck!!!    It's just not right.  It's like torture or punishment.