alaska71's Journal

today I'm doing good.  So i must write about my X. 

I'd say about 8 yrs ago my X Jesse advised me he found his soul mate, soon to follow mutual friends stated he was engaged and so on.  I never called or spoke to him again, I never tried to contact him again and nor did he.  I always felt left out when I hear people have found there SOUL MATES.  So... to my surprise I see he calls as he's in Fairbanks working on a job 8 yrs later.  I went to see him and of course still as hot as always but ya know what MY heart did not skip that extra beat or did I have feelings for him. AND then he asked me to have SEX that he was not happily married.  IT FELT SO GOOD TO DENY HIM.  I have a feeling that he cheats on his wife.  I exposed him to Herpes 9 yrs ago, as that is how I found out I had it.(that's awhole different story).

I was so hurt when he left and got married and it makes me a stornger person to see him miserable yet I feel for the wife as she is 10 yrs younger then he and has not clue what kind of cheating/sexual person that he is. 

It was nice to see him jelous of the free life I live.  I do what I want when I want and no one to answer to.  I could be in a commited relationship I just haven't found that "soul mate" so.....how has this made me think?  Is there really 1 soul mate for each of us or do we make ourselves soul mates?  I'm going to open my eyes more when dating and see what I can find.