alaska71's Journal

i vented on a suport group and wanted to put into my journal: 

Since I last posted; I jumped out of the box and gave a guy my phone #.  We got together and hit it off right away.  I could tell were he wanted it to go and I stopped and told him "I have herpies" his response was "Oh I have it too" I paused for a moment and asked him if he was planning on telling me and his response was "I don't have a breakout and I was going to wear a condom"  I did let it go and I had fun for the evening.  I was so happy to meet someone,he was good looking, nice body, was very interested in me, but in the end I had no respect for him and his response, definately not relationship material, I said bye-bye.  I think to myself...that is how I got into this situation to begin with what was I thinking. Well 5 weeks later I'm pregnate, condom had broke, didn't even think of the morning after pill, now I have the biggest decision to make.  So....now that I have vented, I can honestly say I'm good with be alone for awhile again.  I've made a huge mistake and jumped into something I thoght would be fun and know look were I'm at.  I've never been so careless in my life.  I guess I should be venting on my journal.  I just wanted to write about my 1st dating experience in 3 yrs as I was to scared to tell the nice guys I had herpies, I went for the bad boy.