it's a process
December 31, 2008 11:25pm
i am always feeling lonely and misplaced misunderstood don't think i will ever be with a healthy person again. but maybe i will and i think …
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oceansong26 
11:07pm, May 3, 2009
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About Me
oceansong26
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About Me
I am a 27 year old woman ready to live. I want to quit doing destructive behavior that i have done in the past. I have issues with rape, sexual sporatic behavior and i want o try and cahnge it. I am really considering getting help for it... so i can be happy for the most part... I have burned bridges and it's high time i set out on a new foot...As well as that I am bipolar type 2... it is so hard on everyone around me and mainly my family... hopefuly i can get help... i neeed a lot of support right now no matter what.. friends and family will save me i belive at this point..i am going to try support groups to change my behavior maybe even go to church for very same reason..but all in all today is ok.
I am a 27 year old woman ready to live. I want to quit doing destructive behavior that i have done in the past. I have issues with rape, sexual sporatic behavior and i want o try and cahnge it. I am really considering getting help for it... so i can be happy for the most part... I have burned bridges and it's high time i set out on a new foot...As well as that I am bipolar type 2... it is so hard on everyone around me and mainly my family... hopefuly i can get help... i neeed a lot of support right
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Interests
writing, poetry, singing musical theatre, acting in musical plays and shows, country, 80's music, beaches, spirituality, ocean, and more a lot more.
writing, poetry, singing musical theatre, acting in musical plays and shows, country, 80's music, beaches,
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Totally Cool
December 29, 2008 5:36pm
feel great great amazing and a new fresh start can't wait for new year. I am excited the beginning of something awesome
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yvette today
December 20, 2008 5:51pm
i am feelin pretty good at this moment now that i have listened to pandora.com a local online radio site. I have many good thoughts about christmas …
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today
October 11, 2008 6:34pm
today i went to my new job but did not get very far cause i was not registered in county where job was. didn't know that i had to be. it was a …
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I have bipolar disorder and it is really hard for me to deal with all the time. Constantly I am having mood swings up the wazoo. I feel like shit. The people I live with don't seem to understand me at all. I feel like most of the time my boyfriend doesn't understand me either. I am paranoid and jelouse of most situations and people who I feel have it better than me. I always think people are talking about me a lot. I get very emotional a lot of the time and it scares people too. Help!!!
Treatments
- Abilify Somewhat Helpful
- I can not recognize any side effects
- Depakote Working / Worked
- Weight gain, increased appetite, hyperactive
- Geodon Working / Worked
- Worked well
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- made me feel relaxed
- Lithium Working / Worked
- weight gain, weight loss, hyperthyroid
- Risperdal Working / Worked
- Worked excellent
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- don't remember
- Topamax Not Working
- Weird reaction
- Trileptal Working / Worked
Close Codependency
I always always always need constant attention from everyone everywhere at all times. feel like i have to be with someone constantly 24 seven.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I listen to music either on the computer or You tube or pandora.com and belt out the notes meaning sing. i can relate well
- Reading Not Working
- sometimes read poetry but i get distracted easily.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I am recieving treatment from a psychiatrist and therapist for this paticular issue. I feel on a scale of one being the best and 10 being the worst it is a one
Open Anxiety
I am always spending alot of money talking to strange guys on the phone. Having sex with them. being very shaky. nervous paranoid, need to always talk about it. very upity, fast paced racing thoughts.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- still using currently. have not given up. made me feel better during day then next day same old crap.
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
- scared
- Breathwork Not Working
- scared of it
- BuSpar Not Working
- plain and simple not at all effective enough
- Klonopin Not Working
- plain and simple not effective enough.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- could not do it alone. had to be guided every time.
- Running Working / Worked
- Less Anxious and felt rest assured and at peace
- Valerian Working / Worked
- Felt ready and calmer not hyped up. i could sleep better
Open Female Sexual Issues
Had sex with 13 guys one after another each night in the past month and half when i was manic and anxious.
Treatments
- Doxycycline Working / Worked
- So far it's been great. worked like a charm.
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- hiking and skiing
Open Breakups & Divorce
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Family Therapy Not Working
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Leave Working / Worked
- to abusive a relationship it was to stay.
- Music Working / Worked
- yes definitely made me cry to myself.
- Support from Friends & Family Too Soon to Tell
- Support Groups Considering
- Talking Working / Worked
- just expressed my feeling to my mom and she was supportive very so was doctor.
- Time Working / Worked
- ended the abuse
Open Rape
was raped in college on valentine's day by someone i did not know
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
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