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Jcurly 
12:49pm Friday
Wow, you ladies are amazing!!! I really don't know how I would have survived the last 2wks without the hugs, the prayers, the chats & even the destractions of the 'yes/no' game, LOL! It has been a crazy time for me!
As some of you are aware my mother has been struggling since my stepfather passed last Sept. It is definitely a process, but the transition of putting my family, (DH, myself & future children) first has been an adjustment! It has been difficult to step back & yet I have been able to allow myself the appropriate boundaries & it has GREATLY lowered my stress!!!
I have a ph consult with my RE tomorrow & should see Aunt Flo anytime. I guess I will confirm that we continue the same strategy & begin the next cycle. I still believe that I am healthier now, only 2 months from my 40th BDay, than I was in my 20’s! I know that the answers I have found could be all I need to hold a pregnancy & eventually my sweet baby in my arms! But there still are the days the fear & doubt cloud thing over & I feel a bit gloomy. BUT, I know the sun will shine & I know that the possibilities are there… possibilities for doom & gloom AS WELL AS the possibilities for the success I dream of!!!
My job has been... well also in a transition of sorts. I have felt the shift of the priorities changing. I still LOVE my job, but now am feeling that the stress of the work itself & the running of the business is counterproductive to my plans of a family. I have come to the realization that I need to change what I am doing & possibly how. I still want to work with families & children, but the high risk families, traumatized & abused children are just too much for me right now, I need a break. I love working with the families & children, but I really think this is the transition I need. I am ready! I have a second visit Thursday about a job as a ‘Family Care Specialist’ working for an adoption agency. I am a bit nervous about how close this puts me to ‘my own issues’ but I do know I have so much to offer in this position. It is only 30hrs a wk & I would be working to support the marriage relationship. I also would have FULL benifites, medical, 401k, sick days... all that stuff I didn't have when in bussiness for myself! That would be such a benifit when starting a family!!!
I am trying to leave this all in God’s hands, knowing that if this is where I am mean to be then it will come together. Gee, that almost sounded convincing, huh? I am still trying to live in the “Let go & let God.” But the wait for the BFN & the wait to decide where my career is going is getting really heavy… need to put it down, so that is where I am in major transition & trying to go with the flow.
THANK YOU Again my friends this would not be bearable without you!
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msnrn
Its going to be okay. I know it for sure.
FNP
Gee as if there weren't enough going on.
I just returned from having a 'diagnostic mammogram & u/s' on my left breast. Chris actually found the lump last week & I was too caught up in the 2ww to even think about it. Plus I knew they would have all the issues of xrays & all if I didn't know if I was pg or not. Therefor, when I was in doing b/w on Monday I got the orders for a mammogram from my OB. Yesterday, Dr Rose, my acu/naturalist felt it. She believed it is probably a fibroid cyst, which I have had before. But since I have VERY dense breasts she agreed it best to have it checked.
Well of course they didn't tell me anything today except confirmed it is just over 2cm and my dr would call me "in a few days." NOW I am actually worried. I know they are not suppose to tell me anything, but I just got this odd feeling with how they were talking to me. Kinda like all the u/s that I have had that showed the fetus was 'not viable & miscarriage was eminent.' I have gotten use to that & I got a vibe that they knew something. It is making me crazy now.
WTF, I can't even believe that this is possible! It has to be ok!!! I am really trying to not freak out. I know that what ever the news, my worry wont change it. BUT, I mean really this can't be something bad!!! I don't know what I would do. I pray that "in a few days" is short & I look back I realize I got upset about nothing!!!!!!
Jcurly
oh my goodness... you need more than an umbrella for the downpour you're getting! :( i'm praying for you for peace and health and that everything will work out in the end. hang in there!
strength4today
I am praying for you. I would be so nervous if I were in your shoes. I am praying for great results, hope all is OK. Take lot's of care.
ErikaCas
Listen hon, I went through the exact same thing last year and then just a month ago again because my cyst had grown. Both u/s and mammogram... came back negative. So don't you worry I am sure everything is just fine. I know how you are feeling I was on pins and needles. I have an appointment with a specialist in Dec to pull some fluid from it just to be on the safe side. Better safe than sorry. Big hugs and try not to stress to much. :)
SueCQ
I am praying that everything turns out okay:)
Sar23
I had cysts in my right breast after taking fertility meds. It was just a cyst thank goodness. I know you are scared. I'm praying for you!
JudylynS