Journal Entry for December 19, 2007
December 19, 2007 11:51am
Oh I don't even know where to start...I'm shaking ! I was sexually and physcially/emotionally abused as well. I believed that my Mom did and …
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Oh where 2 start? I used 2b a happy-go-not-so lucky kinda guy. I would just let things roll off my back and just laugh it off. I didn't let ppl. get to me. I was in a period in my life where I wanted a divorce from my wife. I was a haqndsome VERY well built man. And I thought I could find someone who could love me better. I was a Father who was a biker that drove truck for a living...Yup a regular bad ass ! I was 5'9" with a 30in. waist and a 48R coat,@ 206lbs. That was then this is now.
Oh where 2 start? I used 2b a happy-go-not-so lucky kinda guy. I would just let things roll off my back and just laugh it off. I didn't let ppl. get to me. I was in a period in my life where I wanted a divorce from my wife. I was a haqndsome VERY well built man. And I thought I could find someone who could love me better. I was a Father who was a biker that drove truck for a living...Yup a regular bad ass ! I was 5'9" with a 30in. waist and a 48R coat,@ 206lbs. That was then this is now.
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Hello. My name is Clarence. I suffer with insomnia for many years. Klonipin helps bur not all the time. Ambien is useless. I would like to be your friend. Thank you. Clarence
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Read your journal, experienced a similar childhood to you - struggling to understand what went on inside my mum's head during those years - if ever you need to talk im here
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Close Back Pain
Was a truck driver. I was stopped in traffic and was rear ended by another truck weighing 40 tons @ 65mph. I pretty much have 3 discs left where they are supposed to be. I have 3 kids and a GREAT wife. I make $12.50 a week 2 much 2 get any welfare or medicade. lost house,bike,mind,pride,selfworth
Treatments
- Bedrest Not Working
- I try to do as much as I can,but if I try to do ANYTHING. Like...dishes, I hurt to the point where I need to laydown for 3hrs. or take more vicodine
- Chiropractic Adjustment Somewhat Helpful
- did a LOT "3x a week" did disc de comp. deep massage therapy and adj. It was helpful to a point.
- Cortisone (Injection) Considering
- I don't want a band-aid
- Flexeril Not Working
- got used to it. Mobic is MUCH MUCH better!
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- 3,000-6,000 mg. a day! prescribed 3,000 a day
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- for depression
- Morphine Working / Worked
- 120 mg a day WHAT A GOD SEND
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- Mobic is MUCH more helpful
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- HURT TOO MUCH
- Stretching Working / Worked
- try to strech every day
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have P.T.S.D. Due to an accident where I was rear ended by another 18wheeler and lost my job,house,career,Harley,pride,self worth,optomisium,and overall self
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- didn't work
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- ok
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- knocked me on my ass! of course I was taking 350mg. a day...weeeee
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- couldnt mix. + It was too weak
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- works well
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- not strong enuff
- Music Working / Worked
- lose myself in music
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I checked my self into the hospital.Now I see a psych. once a week
- Seroquel Not Working
- too powerful
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- my wife
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- I am trying this
Open Insomnia
I'm not able to sleep many nights due to pain and stress. That's with sleeping pills. I can only take a sertain kind and amount,because I have to get up with my kids in the morning.
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Open Accidents
Was a truck driver. I was stopped in traffic and was rear ended by another truck weighing 40 tons @ 65mph. I pretty much have 3 discs left where they are supposed to be. I have 3 kids and a GREAT wife. I make $12.50 a week 2 much 2 get any welfare or medicade. lost house,bike,mind,pride,selfworth..so on and so on.
Treatments
- Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- it hurt too much. When your laying there crying,it's a lil too much. But HEY workers comp. wants resaults!
- Surgery, Hand Too Soon to Tell
- I have a T8-T9 herniation. Tech. is not quite there yet.
Open Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Male
Type: Genital HerpesWas given a nice lil present from a girlfried who KNEW that she had herpes. And failed to tell me about it. Yes she's still alive. That was 14 years ago.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was mentally,physically,and sexually abused by my ex-stepfather for 9 years. I lost 9 years of memories because my mind blocked out those years of pain so I could go on with life
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