LV2BMOM's Journal

 Well, I am a mother of 3 been married 5 years and am surrounded by family (not all of them helpful or supportive). My oldest son was diagnosed with Apraxia at 4, before that he was just labled speech delayed. My 3 year old who wasnt talking either was diagnosed with Autisim earlier this year while I was pregnant with our little girl who has Downs. We lived in another state during the first 3 years and 2 kids so when our boys didnt talk I just chalked it up to an antisocial mom who could only sing so many songs and read so many stories until she went crazy. But about 2 years ago I was diagnosed with Graves Disease and had radiation to get rid of it and now I am back to my pre kids self. At least my energy level. I just thought I was a terrible mother but it truly was just a medical problem. Of course now when I m to tired to sing the wheels on the bus for the 400th time at least its not because Im out of breath. I love my kids I have a terrific husband and even though alot of my family pities me for what I do eveyday-therapies-preschools-programs-consultations and doctors apointments-I tell ya I would rather have important things to do all day than sit at home with nothing to do.

I have some background with disabilities. I worked as a Developmental Disability Tech and LOVED it. But I just couldnt see it in my own kids. Funny how that worked out. But they say the lord wont give you more than you can handle and I find comfort in that. And on those impossible days when I just want to cry I just tell myself "I can handle this, I am in control of my life" and sometiimes I cry but it helps to be reassured even if its by yourself.