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LKim 
10:19pm, July 6, 2009
I'd like to say to all my friends here,I am sorry I have not been much of a friend here lately, I actually haven't been much of a friend to myself or my family. My pain levels have been just about intolerable. I have cried like a baby, nope, it didn't help the pain, maybe my feelings just a little bit.
Last night consisted of about 2 hours total of sleep and it wasn't good sleep, but I guess it's was better than none. Trying to think positive is wearing thin... but I am still trying .
I know this may sound crazy.. but I am actually missing myself.. I feel so out of touch with everything, like I have been in another world. Hurting like this just makes you think different. I am ready to feel somewhat normal again.. that is if normal is even a part of my world anymore.
Back in 2002 when I had all the nerve problems.. it took me a long time to except my life for what it was afterwards.. and now I am facing that same ordeal again with all of my health problems.
I will have to say, I think after the last few weeks, that my family have really took a better understanding in all I have to deal with.. they have watched me cry , and I know they felt so helpless .. even the kids have said, Momma is there anything I can do ? My response...." Just pray for me!" I know I am doing all I can , so I am letting the Lord handle the big parts!!!
I had to change my arthritis medicine, the one I was on, was causing me to have severe stomach pains, didn't start noticing the hurt until I started taking it 3 times a day, so I am hoping and praying that this new one will help me .
I still haven't got my sewing machine fixed.... but I did find out about a man that works on them and got his phone number. So hopefully we can get it to him over the weekend and he can get it up and running again.
I have been trying to work on some odd and end crafts that had been put back until I got through with this sewing spell I have been in.
Doing all of this stuff, has been a great way for me to get my mind off hurting.
I hope all of you have a really great weekend. God Bless You !! please remember me in your prayers. Love Ya'll, Lori
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(((((((((Lori)))))))))) So sorry you are in sooo much pain, I can relate as my pain levels are horrid as of latly and can not wait to see the dr as thios new med she put me on does NOTHING! lol BUT I keep moving I keep thinking positive as hardas it is someday. We have SUN now so it helps and the weather is warmer whih helps! Some ays all I can do is NOTHING but lay in my recliner, play on here ( although my computer is broke AGAIN! at computer geeks , and sleep. I have the fatigue running my life right now, I sleep but it isnt restful. I am having trouble driving to and fro from my parents, it is a 2 hour drive, which takes me 2 and half as I have to stop several times, somedays I have to take a 15 min snooze in McDonalds parking lot lol Gotta do what i gotta do. I will keep u close in prayr sweetie Bug Hugs & Love Donna S xxoo
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