LKim's Journal

I am just gonna begin this journal today by being as honest as I can be.. I AM FEELING REALLY SORRY FOR MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am still battling a migraine.. I am having times where it will ease up and almost feel like it is about to leave.. BUT then , here it comes again. I am very frustrated and upset and angry and I know this is probably, no, IT IS making it worse.

I am taking the daily meds my Dr. gave me 3 times a day, taking the Midrin 2 at first, then 1 every hour for 3 hours, no more than that every 12 hours, and the Lorcet every 6 hours. I hate the Lorcet, it kinda makes me feel like the nubain shot does EXCEPT it doesn't make me sleepy or rather should I say , it doesn't knock me out, it's like it's almost strong enough but it's not.

I called the Dr. Thursday and asked about trying something else.. she had me come and get a torodol and phenergan shot(which alone the 2 doesn't work) but she was thinking with all the other meds I am taking that it might knock it out. I was able to sleep some after it, but as soon as I got up stirring around again, back it came. It is not EXTREMELY bad ALL the time, just sometimes, I am just simply WORN OUT FROM DEALING WITH IT.. plain and simple.

I have tried doing some simple crafting to try and get my mind off of it, and it has helped but I am sitting here wondering.. HOW LONG IS THIS GONNA KEEP ON???????? First of all, I don't like the idea of taking the Lorcet everyday.. I am having a really big issue with that..  It's a OCD thing.. fear of becoming addicted , and I know that no longer than I have been taking them, I am not addicted to them.  Just me and my crazy thinking.

I went to a few yard sales Sat. with my momma and sisters, thought maybe getting out of the house would help? Or even thought if I found a GREAT BARGAIN  it would make my headache go away. HA HA.. I did find a great bargain... a BIG BEAUTIFUL OVAL RUG THAT IS HUGE< NAVY< BURGENDY< MATCHES MY LIVING ROOM PERFECT with MAGNOLIAS on it.... 5.00   but it didn't make my headache feel better UGH!!!

Paranoia... do I call the Dr. back this morning? I am so scared they are gonna get tired of me.... What do I do? Just keep enduring the migraine , and praying faithfully that it will end it's mission. What else can the DR. do? Oh this is so un-fair, this all could have been over Monday, if I could have gotten the rescue shot. It just makes me want to cry..then that makes my head hurt worse. ANY SUGGESTIONS???? I am open for anything!~!!

I better get off here. gotta take meds... Hope all of you have a great week, God Bless You... I love all of you... Lori