Lori37

Open Child Support & Custody

Well...as I have made known in my story in the bipolar community, I have 5 children ranging from almost 10 to almost 18. I lost custody of my children due to my bipolar, I was told I was mentally incapable of raising my children, but lets go back a ways. I was married to a deadbeat Dad that didn't support his family and was also a drug addict, I was abused almost on a daily basis, both mentally and physically. After years, I am now receiving back child support for my 2 oldest, almost 17 and 18.

Open Bipolar Disorder

I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2000. In the past 5 years I have attempted suicide 4 times by od'ing on my meds. and wound up in the psych ward at the hospital. My first attempt was actually when I was 13 though...when I took my Mothers antipsych meds. The worse part of it to me was the charcoal crap I had to drink when I od'd...OH! and not being able to smoke on the ward. It's been almost 2 years since my last attempt. I am at this time antimeds. Was a member already.. no longer on my list.

Treatments

Geodon Not Working

Made me feel doped up and couldn't function, couldn't sleep alot of times...made me restless.

Seroquel Working / Worked

Worked great...new psychiatrist took me off of it and put me on geodon. Tired of meds. and quacks.

Lexapro Not Working

Was told I wouldn't have problems with weight gain and did.

Prozac Not Working

Had adverse affect on me. Became almost catatonic and extremely fearful.

Remeron Working / Worked

Worked great...again new quack took me off of it.

Open Sex / Pornography Addiction

I was sexually molested as a child by a family friend and as a result became addicted to sex..it's not what alot of people think..it's an everyday hell! My husband is 48 and has E.D. so sex is almost impossible and to be honest I have not yet cheated on him..the thought has crossed my mind. I love my husband with all my heart and I continue to fight my urges. I was in and out of therapy for 24 years and it just does not work for me.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Not Working

Open Female Sexual Issues

I am a sex addict to put it blunt...I am a nymphomaniac and have been in out of therapy for 24 years...it's an everyday hell! I was sexually molested by a family friend as a child and became addicted as a result. My husband has E.D. and refuses ro see a Dr., so it makes it even more difficult. I have not yet cheated on him although I have thought about it...I am fighting these urges everyday especially with all the STD's out there.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Not Working

24 years in and out of therapy it was a joke if you ask me. I am antimeds. Enless my life absolutely depends on it.

Open Sexual Abuse

Starting at the age of 5 a family friend began sexually abusing me, he was 18 at the time. It started with kissing and went as far as oral and penetration. I became addicted to sex as a result. I began masterbating when I was 7 which was about the time the abuse stopped. My first boy friend was 30 and I was 15. I ended up in 2 abusive marriages believing I didn't deserve anything better and that I was nothing.

Open Endometriosis

I began having symptoms in 98 and was told by several physicians that nothing was wrong and it was all in my head! I would be in so much pain it brought me to my knees at times, I moved to another state and found a wonderful doctor that would'nt give up...come to find out it was endometriosis and adhesions from prior surgeries, I had what was suppose to be same day surgery in 2003..well the surgeon cut my bowel and I was in for a week. Having problems again..having hysterectomy in April.

Treatments

Surgery Somewhat Helpful

All was fine for almost 4 years and now it's back..hysterectomy scheduled for April.

Open Alcoholism

I took my first drink when I was only 4 years old, my Dad was a very heavy drinker and late at night if I was thirsty rather then getting up from his chair and getting me a drink he would give me a beer. He went into inpatient treatment in 1977 and has been sober now for over 30 years. I began drinking heavily at 13 and was locked up at 16 for suicidal precautions, see I was sexually abused as a child and again as a teenager, not by family! I self medicated to deaden the pain.

Treatments

12 Step Program Working / Worked

I am in my second round of treatment. I discontinued the 12 steps, meetings and reading my Big Book and relapsed after treatment the first time and I know now that I have to keep up with my prograsm in order to stay sober. I am now 1 month shy of 1 year of sobriety!

AA Meetings Working / Worked

Attending and sharing thoughts, feelings and emotions. My stories and listening to the stories of others is extremely helpful!

Open Hysterectomy

I suffered from endometriosis for years and the pain was unexplainable. Recently had my hysterectomy and bilateral and I have to say that I have never felt better...the pain is gone!!