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StrawberryLetter23 
I normally don’t do these kind of things….came upon this site accidentally …not sure what to say....todays hasnt been good , its been sort of that way for awhile...not becasue of my NF....been dealing with that 4 ever...Mostly because the recent death of my youngest brother….cant stop thinking about him...I need to stop now....
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called in tonight....have not been feeling well ..I have a nasty cold....think I might to go see a doctor soon...have been thinking of my brother a lot...
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thanks to all for the hugs....been a while since I was here.....also when you share a computer with 3 teens...my nephews its kind of hard to get the computer to yourself....anywho thinking of going to see a dr soon ...been having some sever pain…but not sure which dr to see...for it...and we all know how that can go....well take care for now....
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Need to make an appointment to see a doctor been having some sever pain lately, normally I work threw it but it has been getting a little more difficult to bare these days, I don’t take anything when I am pain I just deal with it, don’t know what’s going on, called in from work the past 2 days going to have to call in again, hopefully I’ll get some kind of relief soon....oops got to go for know my cat bella just knocked over a plant….
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still have yet to make any appointment , thing are crazy right now, I have to tend to my personal finances before i can even think about taking some time off, yesterday we had a gathering last night to watch the election results and celebrated when our Candidate won, I'm hopeful for a better future for us all, I actually felt overjoyed and hope I will feel that way for a while , well that's all for now, take care all
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why cant I just get a break.....am I asking for to much....if it isn't one thing its something else...but I guess it's just life messing with me again.....I don't think I'm a bad person....well ...I try not to be...yeah ..other people have it rougher....and I should be so lucky....but sometimes it just doesn't seem like things will get better........I'm not feeling sorry for my self .......I know shit happens....I'm not naive..... it just would be nice if one thing went right .....
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OMG ..its been a crazy week....got sick like a dog...went to my doctor he told me I had a flu.... by the end of the weekend got put into the hospital with fluid in lungs.......was in there from the 23 of February to the 27th.....they poked and ran so many test it was like a episode of "HOUSE".....good thing... he help my aches and pains and got my temp back down to normal.......but now thinks I have PMR what ever that is......they also found an enlarged lymph node in my chest ...waiting on results on that.....finally got released from the hospital on Friday but not from doctors care.......wont release me until a specialist sees me.......cant find one until April....whats up with that........man I'm telling you if it ain't one thing its another......things can only get better......and I hope there do.....
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been having an empty feeling in me lately...which isn't common....not sure what it is....feels like nothing....been second guessing myself...I'm getting to the point where I don't even care about my job.....don't get me wrong I have never been an emotional idiot....and that's what freaking me out...maybe because I'm getting older..i don't know...maybe I just need a long vacation...and just chill and not worry about anything....
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well.....I am about to become one of the many with out health coverage....was just told today ...that my place of employment will be letting go 500 workers...sure enough I happen to be one of them.....wow....just when you think things are about to get a little better..something else always happens....last day of health coverage for me will be October 31....guess I have to just live with the pain.....I have so far..so doing it with out insurance is nothing new.....not sure what I will do ...maybe go to one of those trade schools for awhile .... collect unemployment....I don't know....feel numb right now.....
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