MrPositive's Journal

I was diagnosed with hiv about 4 years ago, and deteriorated a lot quicker than I hoped I would, but looking back at my life then, it really is no surprise that my life progressed the way it did. At that time I was involved in a deeply spiritual process called Shen Chi, in london, with a master called Aiping Wang. I was in this process for two years before my diagnosis, and I guess I was resisting it in such a big way. You see, i wanted to be loved, and so I guess I mistook sex for love and started sleeping around. I had unsafe sex once, and BAM, the rest is history. I don't really look back to try and figure out why I got hiv, because that would be a waste of time and energy. 

So, as I said, I deteriorated quite quickly, and eventually had to go home to my family. Of course they knew that something was wrong, but they were so glad that I decided to come home. I told my parents about my health situation the day after I arrived home, and of course they were distraught, but I have a very resilient family. They accept things quickly and move on, so I'm extremely glad that I chose to be born into this family. 

Then I went to Brazil to see a 'miracle' healer called John of God, who told me that I would be completely healed in 4-5 years. I always knew I would be healed; those beliefs were installed while I was in London. So, even though I was a 50kg skeleton, I still believed that I would eventually beat this. I know lots of people who can't take this onboard, and that's fine because they are only living within their own map of reality, and I accept this. In the past, when I've been on other forums, and expressed my beliefs, I have been shot down in flames. Needless to say, I didn't wait around for the verbal stoning. 

So I am now on hiv meds, though I am planning to come off them in the next year, or maybe not! Who knows? But they have been a gift, as they have allowed to me rebuild my body, travel to brazil and start a new career. I am now a Life Coach. It's all part of my healing, to be able to help others rebuild their lives and really live in possibility. So that's a short version of my story..