Journal

I am not dealing with things right now. I feel so alone and abandoned. The word that most describes how I am feeling from people who suposedly care about me is, insignificant. I need to do something with my life, but what? Im planning to go to school in the spring, after being out of high school for almost five years, so thats a start. I feel like just packing my stuff, getting in the car, and just driving until I find some place I like, and live there. I need a fresh start.

My "friends" make me feel so unimportant to them. I want to be someone they think 'I'll call Katie, she can help" or "She'll know what to do" I just want to have the people I love, care about me. My dad was the only person who always made me feel special. He constantly told me he loved me, and did little things to show he cared. since hes been gone, there is no one. I dont have a significant other, all i have is my mom, my sisters, and a few friends, and I feel like none of them know Im here. IM STILL HERE!!! HELP!!