hurtinggirl

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

Another day another tear. I was put into several foster homes when I was little. And I am in an adoptive "family". Still every home I have been to has and still is physically and emotionally abusive. I've given up on trying to find somewhere else to go. I'm so afraid that no matter where I go, someone, somewhere will hurt me. I hate it. Maybe I do derseve everything that has and will happen. I just wish and pray with all of my heart that it wouldn't hurt so much.

Open Self-Injury

I have had a self-injury problem since I was 11 years old. It is a way to get away for a second. Then reality hits hard. Then I do it again just for that little break. I don't know what else I can do.

Open Sexual Abuse

Don't ask, I'm not ready for this one...

Treatments

Art Somewhat Helpful

Music Working / Worked

Open Phobia

Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection Atychiphobia - Fear of failure Autophobia - Fear of being alone Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying Acrophobia - Fear of heights Androphobia - Fear of men Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single Cynophobia - Fear of dogs

Open Other Heart Problems
Type: Heart Murmur

I have had a heart murmur since birth.

Treatments

Breathing Exercises Considering

I sit down close my eyes and focus on deep breathing, staying as calm as I can.

Open Arthritis

I have had arthritis in my shoulder since I was....13? My shoulder is always in dislocation. The cold hurts it most. As well as if I don't pop it out in the morning. Too much information? But it's true.

Treatments

Ibuprofen Working / Worked

Open Eating Disorders

I tend to starve myself to lose weight.

Treatments

Paxil Not Working

Made me gain weight like crazy.

Open Anxiety

I have social anxiety constantly.

Treatments

Paxil Not Working

Weight gain. Not cool.

Open Adoption

I was adopted a few years ago.

Open Depression - Teen

Not something I want to discuss right now.

Open ADHD / ADD

I've had ADD since birth. I'm not sure how to deal with it.

Treatments

Ritalin Not Working

weight gain

Open Asthma
Type: Other

I have a breathing problem that still cannot be identified. I have a very difficult time breathing.

Treatments

Advair Somewhat Helpful

The powder that comes out makes me choke sometimes. But it works to a degree.

Inhaler Somewhat Helpful

It worked to a degree as well but not fully.

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

Major depressions been apart of me for all my life!

Treatments

Prozac Not Working

Risperdal Not Working

Open Panic Attacks

I have panic attacks constantly. Which ties in with everything else I've been through.

Treatments

Paxil Not Working

weight gain

Seroquel Not Working

I don't know, it just didn't work for me.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

I have had PTSD ever since I was an infant.

Treatments

Paxil Not Working

weight gain once again

Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Friend

Three of my friends commited suicide in 2006. One over a relationship gone wrong, one over getting a girl pregnant, and the other over a report card.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

It all depends on what memory has hit me.

Helping Others Working / Worked

Keeping Busy Working / Worked

Music Working / Worked

Pets Working / Worked

Remembering Working / Worked

Support Groups Working / Worked

dailystrenght

Time Working / Worked

Open Insomnia

Last week alone I got maybe. four hours of sleep (in a seven day week)

Open Stress Management

I'm not one that handdles stress well. I would like to learn how to handle stress in a more positive way.

Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery

I tried my first when I was 8 yrs. old. I started more heavy when I was 14. Every attempt to stop has been a failure. And still to date as a 19 year old. Still smoking. ;/ BUT it's just on occasion now :)

Treatments

Cold Turkey Not Working

Hard Candy Not Working

Doesnt rally work but it sure is yummy! :-p

Wellbutrin Not Working

It caused manic spells..

Willpower Working / Worked

Doin good

Open Family Issues

EVERY family I have ever been in has serious conflicts to work out.

Open Teen Sexuality

Open Shyness

I have always been shy. I think sometimes my shyness hinders me from meeting good people. I mean once I get to warm up to someone, It's usually too late.

Open Dizziness & Vertigo

For the past year, I have been getting very dizzy. It happens out of nowhere. I can be sitting in class working, when out of nowhere I get very dizzy. I have yet to tell a docter about this. Should I be concerned?

Open Alcoholism

don't ask

Open Separation Anxiety

As dignosed by the doctor when I was in the hospital in 2006.

Treatments

Music Working / Worked

Pets Working / Worked

Open Migraine Headaches

AHHH NEED RELIEF NOW!!! How do I get rid of them?

Treatments

Tylenol Not Working

Because of the fact that I took an overdose on tylenol, my body cannot handle it!

Ibuprofen Working / Worked

works wonders for me but I can only take the small round ones or I cant get it down.

Open Back Pain

I'm too young for this! I think because of being abused, and everything that I have gone through, it causes back PAIN! My back goes out alot, and I just drop to the ground, and scream in my mouth!

Treatments

Ibuprofen Too Soon to Tell

I'm not sure if it really works or not because it goes away whenever it wants to.

Open Diets & Weight Maintenance

Treatments

Atkins Diet Working / Worked

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful

Open Coma

Open Step Families

So basicly I have ALOT of step siblinings... I guess sometimes it gets me upset, but at other times its ok... (I'm the oldest)

Treatments

Prayer Working / Worked

Open Healthy Relationships

I'm working on making a relationship with a man who is looking in the same direction as I.... (I hope, lol.)

Treatments

Patience Somewhat Helpful

One day at a time

Talking Working / Worked

Talking works wonders and keeps everything more honest.

Open Healthy Sex

Open Homelessness

Open Families of Prisoners

My sister is in and out of group homes, jail, prison.. It's taking its toll. I dont know what to say so I say nothing but "i still believe in you, I still love you" I can't do anything, I dont know what to do, shes my world!! :(

Treatments

Patience Somewhat Helpful

I know she can do this!!

Psychotherapy Not Working

Talking Not Working

Talking usualy ends up in argument.

Writing Not Working

Open Healthy Eating

So I've had E.D.'s all of my life. I'm trying to get more healthy. Live longer you know? But I'm not sure how to do this yet! :(

Treatments

Physical Exercise Not Working

because no one will go with me and im afraid to do it by myself!

Open Female Sexual Issues

Uhm.. kind of too embarrassed to say!

Treatments

Relaxation Too Soon to Tell

Open Anemia
Type: Iron Deficiency Anemia

I have had anemia for 4 years. Hair loss, weakness, so tired. My doc said it was cause of lack of iron, but I took the iron pills and the level doesnt seem to go up. Im kind of really confused.

Treatments

Iron Not Working

Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: Other

Cant stand meat. I have 4 different kinds of animals. I love animals but eat them?

Open Families & Friends of Gays & Lesbians

my sis goes on and off of this subject. not worried though. i love her to death

Open Loneliness

I feel as though I will be alone for the rest of my life :'-(

Open Bullying

Basicly all throughout school. Elementry on up!

Open Foster Care

Years of watching other kids get dropped off and adopited before me. Great fun that was, and one of the most depressive enviornments to be in and around!!