Jamie510's Journal

i really need help. and i dont know where to turn :(  i feel myself slipping deeper and deeper into this stupid depression and i dont know how to get out of it.   i only have one person to turn to and as much as having her helps,  its not enough to keep me from getting stuck back in this fuckin hole. i dont know what to do. i dont know where to turn.  and why am i the one sitting here miserable when im the one who ended the relationship?? he is such a jerk, i just couldnt be with him anymore. but now, im devastated. im falling farther and farther. what was is about being with him that kept me afloat? was i only able to hang on becuse i had a guy in my life that really did love me? even if he didnt treat me right, he was still there. o god. i am so fucked up right now. i dont know what to do or where to go. :(  im dying inside. im dying on the outside. i cant hold it in anymore. i cant stop crying.