John
May 21, 2009 12:20pm
So, John and I are taking a break. I felt like he was pressuring me to get married and I am just too young to throw away my life like that. I want to …
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F10W3Rchild
9:58pm, January 11, 2009
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About Me
F10W3Rchild
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About Me
I am bipolar and dyslexic. I suffer from OCD, ADHD and PTSD. I am agnostic. It is the only one that makes sense to me for right now. I want an occupation that pays well and I enjoy. I have grown up into a life of poverty and when I have children I would want for them to grow up not having to deal with many things that I have had to deal with, that being one of them. I want to be in a stable situation before I have my children because so many kids are brought into the world in broken or unstable homes and families. Believe me, I should know.
I am bipolar and dyslexic. I suffer from OCD, ADHD and PTSD. I am agnostic. It is the only one that makes sense to me for right now. I want an occupation that pays well and I enjoy. I have grown up into a life of poverty and when I have children I would want for them to grow up not having to deal with many things that I have had to deal with, that being one of them. I want to be in a stable situation before I have my children because so many kids are brought into the world in broken or unstable homes
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Interests
I love all forms of art, literary art, visual art, music, culinary, architecture, the list goes on and on.
I love all forms of art, literary art, visual art, music, culinary, architecture, the list goes on and
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I want a girlfriend.
March 4, 2009 4:48pm
So now that I have been separated from John I have taken some me time and I have realized that I am more valuable that other people give me credit …
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Update and vent.
January 16, 2009 1:18pm
I’m waking up tired a lot these days. It appears I need to get to bed at 9 so that I can get to sleep at 10. How much does that suck? I used to …
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So I'm having a good day.
December 5, 2008 10:47am
I'm having a good day and I can't wait to see John. Our relationship has gotten better since I have been on the meds. I can't wait to see …
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Thats rubbish why did he break up with you? He sounds like he is really messing you about - be careful! I think giving yourself some space and time would be good then if he still wants to get back with you in a while then so be it, what do u think? xx
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Hey chick, how have you been. Howas your christmas, hope you are well love Jen xx
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Guess what the present is soon to be birthday girl?......ME! lol
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A hug for you since I've known you for how many years now? :)
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
I was taken advantage of when I was a child and most of it was incestuous. I would rather not exploit who did it. i did instigate it but considering the fact that I was not at age of consent I know that it was not my fault and that I am the vic.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I have become an artist and I think that a lot of my actions when I was younger and still, even today, are fueled by my abuse and warped by it as well.
- Music Working / Worked
- I adore music. It can take me to different moments in my life and can make me feel all feelings. Classical music is the best, opera just doesn't come close enough.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Ever since the first time I told someone in confidence I have somehow found the strength to tell more people and telling has helped to "connect the dots" and make sense of my actions. I also have found the strength to not blame myself as often and to not hate my offenders as harshly.
Close ADHD / ADD
I have not been diagnosed but I know that I am ADHD. Other people have told me that they think that I am but it could be because of my mania.
Open Bipolar Disorder
I went to therapy and I did take some medication for a while but I don't do either now. I am on birth control and that regulates my mood swings and periods a little bit.
Treatments
- Geodon Working / Worked
- I have a sore throat and it's hard to talk or sing. I'm not coughing and don't have a dry mouth.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaI was anna along with a lot of my friends.
Open Self-Injury
It started in middle school and I sometimes get the urge to do it but not so much.
Treatments
- Geodon Working / Worked
- I haven't thought about it or done it since taking this.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have had migraines all of my life. I got them at a very early age and I don't think that I ever gone a full month without having one. Headaches are like nothing to me now that I have come accustomed to my migraines.
Treatments
- Aspirin Somewhat Helpful
- Works for those situations when I am in only a little bit of pain but if it is too much pain it atleast lowers it to a more standable level of pain.
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- This is a bunch of BS. IT is not what you are eating if it has been reoccurring from your childhood! I have changed my eating behaviors since then and nothing has happened so this obviously can't be the cause. (and it can't my breast size, because children do not have boobs and I have had migraines since I was a baby!)
- Caffeine Working / Worked
- This is not only not the healthiest thing to do but I am very sensitive to caffeine and I get too hyper if I take too much. It can throw off my game and make the manic side of me too dominate. Other than that, I get very fun and energetic and if you don't know me you might get annoyed with me or find me a bit stupid and immature but I don't mind the side effects as long as I am not in pain. ^_+
- Excedrin Working / Worked
- Works very very well but it still has the caffeine effect if I take too much. I haven't learned how to control the portions, because, you know, some migraines feel like those 3 pill ones when they are only 2 pill ones. You just can't bee too sure.
- Tylenol Not Working
- Not strong enough. I know I sound like a true druggie when i say this but it is true. I need the strong stuff or nothing at all. I might as well go cold turkey if I am not going to get well.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Because of my abuse...
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I am an artist at heart and adore all forms of art.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I read about other's PTSD and educate myself about it in a different way.
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- My BF helps me.
- Geodon Working / Worked
- I haven't any racing thoughts and i haven't been worried about things too much.
Open Bisexuality
I always knew that I liked the same sex but just didn't realize what it was called until middle school. I realized that I liked the same sex for more than just friends when I "tested" with my best friend. I have claimed to be bi ever since I was sure of it.
Open Phobia
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces. Harmed by wicked persons; bad men or burglars- Scelerophobia. Fog- Homichlophobia or Nebulaphobia.
Treatments
- Acceptance Working / Worked
- I can't fear the unknown and I know that it's not to weird to be scared of fog, chickens or small spaces. I can avoid them.
- Geodon Working / Worked
- I can walk up stairs and such with out freaking out as much.
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
I change when the weather does. It could also be a social thing but the older I get the worse it gets. Could this be genetic?
Treatments
- Geodon Working / Worked
- I am not sure but i think that it's been helping with this because it was dreary outside and i was still fine.
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