Not much to say really, update soon!!
Not much to say really, update soon!!
Getting my life back on track!!
Getting my life back on track!!
February 14, 2008 4:49pm
Song that explains me completly...... "Tourniquet"I tried to kill the painbut only blood worksI lay dyingand …
February 13, 2008 4:39pm
And guess who's still here!!! Obviously wasnt my time to go last night. Seriously thought that was it for me, dead and gone, i was ready for it, …
Thinking of you xxxxxx
Hey have a hug :)
Hi Hun, I hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself. I'm trying to get my friends list down to just a few that I keep track of. It seems like you haven't been on for a long time. I'm taking everyone off my list who's not around for a month or longer. If you do come back though check in with me and I'll add you back if you'd like. ((hugs))
miss you :(
You are doing the right thing but I know that you are afraid Loves ya hunni HAVE FUN!! xxooxxooxxooxxooxxoo
Had depression since i was 14, gradually got worse over the years but recently it seems all my problems have been rolled up into one and i just cant see a way out anymore. Every where i turn there is happy smiling people when i feel like i dont want to be here anymore. No-one knows about this except people on here cause i put up barriers and pretend to be happy when really im dying inside.
Been self harming for about 4years. I know its not right but i cant help myself, i get stuck in a rut with the depression and need a release from everything. Kind of helps but i need to stop. Sick of having to think about what i have to wear to cover up my arms when i go out. not like i go out anyway, my room is my safe place, just not safe from myself at the minute. Just dont know how else to let it all out.
Im the emotional punching bag everyone likes to take a swipe at, cant be happy as i get knocked back down to rock bottom everyday!!
Im always on edgeand tense, going out i get terrified that everyone is looking at me and thinking horrible things. Never been happy with myself which dosn't help.
Had astha ever since i was two, its a part of my life i have to accept but dont, usually end up doing to much at the gym and get home struggling to breath!!
I cant talk to people face to face without looking down and going red. Feel like people are constantly judging me. Im so quiet around new people that they usually think im some kind of wierdo. Once i know someone im ok but its hard for me to make new relationships.
Broke up with my girlfriend of 3and a bit years a few days ago. I stayed with her because i wanted her to change and stop hurting me the way she did. Cant forgive her for some of the things she did but theyr will always be a place for her in my heart. Just hope i can get over it as i feel so alone now :(
Been drinking since i was 13, recently been drinking whenever i can to block everything out but its changing me so much.
