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November 19, 2009 10:54pm
I'm so afraid around the next corner is a place I'm gonna struggle with, my shoulder kills me daily the subutex is better than nothing but its not …
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Over 2.5 years on subutex , it works if you want it to, if you want "normal" I have learned a lot about it about me about life though I don't claim any answers except my views on religion and my many years of whatever you waNna call it life no answers theRe unless its a sentence that's not fun
Over 2.5 years on subutex , it works if you want it to, if you want "normal" I have learned a lot about it about me about life though I don't claim any answers except my views on religion and my many years of whatever you waNna call it life no answers theRe unless its a sentence that's not fun
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i guess this was a waist of time
November 6, 2009 6:26pm
This place I hoped coming back to get something , what I dunno but it just seems its not a place that can provide the support I hoped I got them to …
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Neil young said are you ready for the country
October 27, 2009 1:37pm
I say am I ready for the city damn feels so weird here just a couple days and I'm so lost I'm not physically lost I have GPS but just lost I didn't …
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new day feeling little better
October 22, 2009 2:40pm
Been sick for so long I hope it was the flu or swine flu so ill be over it and not have to worry about it but the world nor I will ever know but its …
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Schtic,
I guess it's no sense in worrying about the future and wondering "if, when, why, how long".....etc. It is what it is today. Ive been upping to 8-12mg a day and feel betterall ready. I'm seeing my doc next week and will discuss my symptoms with him to see if he thinks I should start to taper or, because of my little slip a few weeks ago, stay on the sub a bit longer. Still very tired and going to take a nap now. Thanks for the hug and support!!
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Thanks, schtic. It is hard, I wonder if I'll ever be able to get off the stuff. My leg & knee pain is worse every day and I just have a gut feeling it is from the sub....I don't know what to do. Some days I'm taking 8mg if it's really bad, others just 4mg but like you, I've never been able to get under 4mg yet...all we can do is try our best, right?
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Hi schtic,
Thanks a lot for the advice. The problems why I have been taking klonopin for have gone but they have been replaced by new news. I am ok but I don't know why I have freaked out. I talked to my doctor and she said it is ok to stay on it just as prescribed. I am still worrying about it and I was advised by a dr from the ER to stop taking it and take Seroquel instead. It is an atypical anti-psychotic. My doctor prefers that I don't take seroquel because it is tough on the liver and she wants me to be clean from atypical anti-psychotics for a while. I might press her on removing me from klonopin though. I don't know if it will change my feeling that I got hooked on something. I think I even know why I got hooked on it. Very deep wound.
Thanks so much for your support.
WL
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Yah. Thanks again. I get the headache too.
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Subutex huh? I've tried suboxone and that worked real well but the doctor wouldn't prescribe it last time I asked. What kind of drug is subutex?
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I came back I'm not sure why. I left because it was causing me more pain to be here I guess I am long time successful subutex case I mean I went thru many years of pills and narcotics untill I found sub its helped me get my life back but I'm afraid um not cured just under control where I go from here the lord only knows cause I feel I'm cracking I guess that's why I'm here its not like I have been perfect
Treatments
- Faith Working / Worked
- Oh yeh i have died...dead od od od was dieying er's and whatever you can imagine..why else would i be here. maby i can encourage someone now that I'm back I think I need encouraging I need more faith!
- Suboxone Working / Worked
- That stuff sucks you do absorbe some narcan and it caused me many issues
- Subutex Working / Worked
- Yes and no I got my life back except my credit and a "real job" everyone thinks I'm ok but I'm not after 2.5 years I don't think ill ever get off it unless its to get on something else I was much more optomistic a year ago now I just seem to want to quit it and have fun again but I know the cost and risk and what will happen and its to ugly to go back but I can't forget the bliss of slowly killing myself I dunno I have yet to see anything work nothing works but our own will the drugs like this just help keep you from using but don't stop you if I wasn't so isolated I don't know if it would I had to ditch all my "friends" so I can't score anyway that's all that works
Close Prescription Drug Abuse
I guess I need support when I first came to ds few years ago I thought I was on to something and could encourage others and I did but I think I come back in need of support I dunno I guess I nEed peOple to talk to that understand well first I have been on subutex over 2.5 years now it just seems its time to move on but I can't I'm addicted to it I'm not on the street I see a good dr but he can only do so much I started on 20mg now I use about 6mg give or take but I stay on it well for several reasons that I guess I'm looking for I gotta know I can be without it or if I should just stay under its protection for well, so I don't mess up again but its getting old I'm tired of needing something but I also take benzo's too I think I could go without sub before I could the benzo's I'm here because I'm afraid again I guess its winter setting in that's harder for me than summer I don't know why but for me it is.
Treatments
- Faith Working / Worked
- Well yeh but I can't prove it , I can't think of any side effects of faith and hope
- Suboxone Working / Worked
- Terrible side effects
- Subutex Working / Worked
- Well it has allowed me to catch up sort of and live as close to a normal life as I can , I get a bit wired and nervous from it but that's why I take benzo's
Open Anxiety
Well I worry more than I think is healthy and using benzo's for couple years just don't really do it , they help but I still freakout over stuff just missing my car keys for a bit drives my up the wall I'm tired of climbing the walls but I know my lifestyle probably has a lot to do with it I worry because I messed up my life I been to the bottom and have worked long and hard to climb out but along the way between getting robbed a few times one at gun point and other personl reasons have made me one giant knot my whole body and mind stay tense and I just freak out sometimes over nothing !
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- I can't sleep without it but I like the way it wears off and I can get up without a hangover
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- Sucked made me feel drunk for a while I don't drink so feeling drunk just turned me off it
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Just makes me tired the next day and so on
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Well I can't seem to think positively right now I have in the past but perhaps that's why I came back to ds
- Trazodone Not Working
- Just made me really tired its caused my dad to get so slopy and careless he has accidently shot himself twice
- Valium Somewhat Helpful
- It helps but is just another problem ontop of a different problem seems best used only from time to time not regularly or it just stop's working at all
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Well I go to a dr that gets you off drugs rather than putting you on them and dosnt think I should get on it and I agree after taking it for a month at night to sleep I began to have real cravings for it in the day
- Zoloft Not Working
- Makes me feel like gas station speed to me
