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vchen 
8:15pm Friday
Last night I went with a friend to drop off a card for another friends husband. We thought we would just drop off the card and leave. When we got there we found out that her husband was on his way home in an ambulance. The cancer spread and he is coming home to die.
I am still overcome with an immense sadness which will not go away.
Over and over again my mind keeps seeing my boyfriends mother in the hospital dying from cancer. Plus us being there at the end. I can not get this picture out of my head.
Thoughts play back that this might have been me. If I did not go to the museum with friends and get my foot caught in a hole. No one would have discovered that I have cancer.(It is a long story)
Why should I care?
I am just in such a state of shock. Each time he fights this. He is such a kind and loving person it is not fair. My friend is going to be devasted.
I do not know what to say to her. Want to go over there to say goodbye but I do not want to see him in that state.
So hard.
So sad.
Not desire to got to dailysis. Not the best time to be givng me a new technique.
I can not handle life now.
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I'm so sorry Valerie!! Bless his and your heart!! My prayers are with you! May God be with you!! Katey xxxx
nixfix
I had a neighbor that died of cancer the summer of 2004. The harest thing I had to do that summer was go over there and say good bye. Two days later she passed on. My grandfather passed on at the beg. of the year I didn't even want to go out to the rest home and see him I felt that it would really dpress me and feel more destraught than I all ready was. My mom said when she was in the rest home he wasn't even talking nor he would have know who anybody was. My 14 year old cousin Haley tried going in the room but, she just had to step out. My grandma has been going down a hill since my grandpa passed on. I understand your greive and sorrow. My thought and prayers are with you. Hugs, Barfy
Barfbucket
we're so very deeply saddened, and sorry to hear the sad news. You all are in our thoughts and prayers. god bless you all. We're praying for you all. super big comforting hugs.
Chris1981
Allow GOD to keep your heart and trust that HE has given you the strength to do that which your heart desires. HE did not give you, your friends, or loved ones cancer but HE gives us the ability to overcome and be strong, leaning on HIS promises. It may hurt now but know that pain will end and there is peace.
Hananoaoi