Journal

It is so painful for me to say goodbye.  I hate saying goodbye.

My internet is getting cut off today. Life is uncertain for my husband and I right now and we don't know what is happening with his new employer, whether my husband has a permanent job with them or not.  So much has changed, so many challenges and stresses it hasn't been pleasant for either of us.  We try to remain focused on our blessings and one day at a time and know we will get through this.

There are so many people in worse situations that we dare not complain publicly too loud.  We aren't any more special than anyone else who suffers from jobloss or poverty in this world.  It is what it is. 

God bless all of my friends here at DS.  And thanks DS for a safe haven to talk about all of my life.  God bless everyone. 

Big hugs with all my love LaVivre

I am sorry to all my friends that I have not been here at DS for so long.  It has been a challenging few weeks for me personally.

I won't have time right now to read all my messages and hugs, but I will get to them eventually.  I'm sorry it is this way but there is not much I can do about it.

This company that bought out the company my husband is working for is causing my husband a lot of stress and anguish and as a result made life different for me and so I have not had as much time for leisure lately as a result.

I am ready for a change myself, I look at this as a new chapter in life, an opportunity to do something different, to change things up.  But my husband doesn't see it that way. He is resisting the change that is all around him and is angry that he has to face change again. My husband wants everything to remain the same even when he knows that is not reality.

God has brought us both through harder challenges.  I was thinking the other day how by the Grace of God I have gotten through my own life to now, and how fear only clouds our path and our hearts and minds.  I do not fear what is ahead, whatever that may be.  Now if only I can get my husband to embrace our new opportunities with confidence and joy. (I realize I cannot 'get' him to do anything... that he has to do this on his own, I just hope he can for his own sake find some personal peace with this sooner than later)

God bless all my freinds here at DS.  I pray for you all every day.  I will be back later this week when I can.  Until then, God be with us all.

Love LaVivre

Canada Day today. Quiet in town today, save for a few fireworks after dark in some of the neighbors yards.  That is what we enjoy a great deal in this town when it occurs, the quiet, no ATV's or racing cars drag racing down main street, no drunks blasting stereos or screaming loudly for hours over the blasting stereos throwing empty beer bottles around.  Just quiet.  The kind of quiet where you can hear the leaves on the trees rustle and the birds singing.  That is the luxury we enjoy when we can. 

Hubby had some yard work to do today after yesterday's storm.  It tore up some of the trees and he had some clearing to do.  It rained pretty hard here yesterday,the kind of rain that can cause flash flooding, but fortunately for us we only had a little water from one basement window to clean up.  The rain came down so fast it flooded the yard and public sidewalk and street.  I figured for certain we were going to find more water in the basement but thank God we didn't. 

We kept to home today, tending to chores and preparing for another work day tomorrow.  Hubby had phone calls all day today, even tho it was a day off for him, to sort things out as the transition will take awhile to settle in. But that is okay, he has a job, and we are allright for now.  We know we won the birth lottery being born here in Canada.  We both agree that things could be a lot worse for us were we to be living in any number of countries who have far more struggles than we will ever know in two life times.

Thank you God for our country of Canada and all of our blessings, rights and freedoms that we so easily take for granted.