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NikiT 
23/10/08
Wow this is kind of scary. I have been on DS since December 2007 but never really felt comfortable telling my innermost feelings to people, let alone people I don't know. I am quite guarded like that. I have so many things I want to say but my head thinks faster than I can actually type them! Maybe I'll try another day.
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I have so much to say, just don't know where to begin. I'm feeling down and wish my demons would go away and leave me alone.
NikiT
well, congratulate yourself for making a start, I'm here if you want to talk feel free if you want to message me,
take care,
L
mayday101
I never thought about it till I started a relationship with my now former fiancé. When she started sharing with me the sexual abuse she went through, I started remembering some sexual abuse I went through. I love and trusted her, and shared this with her. I also got upset and depressed because of knowing what she went through. Even though it bothered me so much knowing what she went through, I felt despite the pain that I was man enough to support her and be by her side through this bad depression she was going through. I never even considered leaving her for my love and commitment to her was real through thick and thin, and I reminded her of that everyday that I was by her side and was not going anywhere. Instead she left me.
It is hard sharing my feelings for I feel embarrassed about emotional pain. There is still such a big stigma attached to it and people just think you will get over it, or that it is not possible to have as much pain as physical. I feel I have no place to go but this forum, and every time I share I am scared that someone will shoot me down or just tell me to get over it.
I can never be where you are or totally understand the emotional pain you are feeling from being raped, but I can understand emotional pain and how it affects everything in your life and relationships.
aquariuscomfort