kmk20in5's Journal

With that title in mind I think I will just once again make a few promises that I know work:

1. write in my food journal - the little 2 pm alarm on my palm is helping AND I will write even if I screw up.

2. Exercise 5 - 6 times a week

3. No alcohol until Nora's birthday party on October 6. 

Yesterday I happen to turn on the TV when Sean and Nora were out at tennis and the library and there was a special about the Go Red Campaign on MSNBC. Was this coincidence or was I meant to see this show because it made me cry. I know I need to take care of myself for Nora and Sean and me - I want to be around a long time. AND I know my family has a history of heart attacks (of course only if cancer doesn't get you first) and high blood pressure - one strike already against me. 

I can't sit around and get all down about how I screwed up the summer with my over eating and what not - that is just stupid

Today I ran for 36 minutes and walked for 19 minutes. Yesterday I ate healthy and I am on track doing the same today. 

All the other shit going on around here (Nora's school issue) is NOT an excuse to hurt myself by over eating. That all will work out in time. My time is limited and I will get off 6 pounds between now and October 22. 

Changing the time of TOPS meeting changed my weight but the truth I was just messing around with the scale by running right before weigh in and not eating/drinking until afterwards so it wasn't a true weight. My true lowest weight was probably 3 - 4 pounds more. So there I have confessed my sin....

so, basically I gained 10 pounds this summer - so what? I will lose it before this year is over I am determined. 

Trips, holidays be damned! The food will always be there so there is no reason to eat it all of it all of the time and if we have our way we will get our new home in Hawaii where I can get manapua and tuna fish salad sushi when I feel like it fits in my meal plan. Until then I won't die if don't eat a ton of it on  our trip AND for that matter on other outings this fall. I can do them and still be successful. I mean yesterday I ate my cheese and still managed to do okay - portion control is what it is all about. 

So, right now I need to tough it out and be on the ball every day until Camp Trinity (Sept 25) and then when I am there watch the food and pack our own as needed so that I am not tempted by the snacks but cut myself some slack too and then get back on the horse after Camp is over to carry me to Nora's birthday - one day of treats and then to our trip to PA and then Boo at the Zoo and then our departure to Hawaii. I will be down 6!