Journal

Weigh-in at 159.5 today.

Feeling like the week was good. 

Ran a good 50 minutes at a 10 min mile pace on the treadmill. 

Tomorrow I'll have to workout at home due to GO DOG GO show but it is worth it. 

Anne gets here Saturday around 5. I got her a gym pass so she can go with me. 

I can't think of anything else to write right now. Maybe later....

Okay, i didn't weigh 164.5 - it was actually 162.5 - I guess in my distraught mood I just bumped it up even higher!

In any case this week at TOPS I weighed in at 159.5 - a 3 pound loss! Yeah me! 

Tonight my best friend's husband is coming over for dinner. We will have the usual thursday night spaghetti but I so want to open a bottle of wine too! Even though I said no alcohol until Nora's birthday, oh what to do what to do? I know I wouldn't drink more than 2 glasses and I want to be good hostess - such rationalizing, I think. 

Nora and I made our low fat no bake cheese cake. Leftovers will have to go to her cousin at college promptly on Saturday! 

Ran a good 50 minutes today on the treadmill - 5 miles and walked 10 minutes at a 4 mph pace. Got  back into lifting this week. Tomorrow is my last workout day of the week (Saturday is my day off) so I think it will be any everything day when it comes to body parts to focus on since yesterday was lower body and monday was upper body (not feeling the upper body any more but my butt and thighs are sore from yesterday - a good thing I think). 

I am still thinking about doing the Wednesday morning yoga - maybe I will start that next week. the class is at 9:30 and it is for beginners and regulars.....

Tomorrow I have an 80 minute massage - splurge I know but I get 20% off! Can't wait! 

6 pound adjustment numbers is 162.5 - 6 = 156.5 by Oct 22 -- kind of makes the progress slider a little wacky due to my error but HEY I need some positive reinforcement and that slider sure does provide it - at least for me. 

finally, i love the awesome yogurt cheese I found at whole foods last week - it tastes so good. Calories around 100 an ounce and 7 g fat but really low sodium like 110 mg per ounce. I need to get some more! also, it is made in Holmes County, Ohio - my home state, gotta love the Amish! 

I know this journal entry is pretty random and all over the place but sometimes I can't figure out what my focus should be but in any case here is my plan for the next week:

Tonight: enjoy the spaghetti and open wine if I decide to - have one glass - make it last and last, if there is some leftover save it for blue moon burgers! 

Friday: Gym and massage and make tabouli salad for work

Saturday: work and eat right - take enough snacks to get me through

Sunday:  Run and work - same deal with it comes to food

Monday: Nora school; me gym; enjoy the afternoon with her

Tuesday: Nora school me work on increasing the run outside (it is now harder than the treadmill - what's the deal with that????) 

Wednesday: Nora school; me gym and any commissary stuff needed for Camp

Thursday: TOPS and run on treadmill

Friday: Alternate gym with Sean and at noon off to CAMP!!!!!! Yeah!

Obviously journal food every day and again avoid the after dinner eating - will distract with gum and or 1 or 2 dove promises if there is room in the food plan

AT Camp: enjoy self; don't worry too much about food (but still journal and exercise both days) get back on track when we get home on Sunday. 

Now, I am starting to think I may be able to get back to my 150 number by the end of the year - it won't be easy with Camp, PA, Hawaii and more but I am thinking about trying. I won't be at my 140 final goal but if I start the new year at 150 I can really kick it into gear and get to 140 by Easter 2010......

Let me think about it. 

With that title in mind I think I will just once again make a few promises that I know work:

1. write in my food journal - the little 2 pm alarm on my palm is helping AND I will write even if I screw up.

2. Exercise 5 - 6 times a week

3. No alcohol until Nora's birthday party on October 6. 

Yesterday I happen to turn on the TV when Sean and Nora were out at tennis and the library and there was a special about the Go Red Campaign on MSNBC. Was this coincidence or was I meant to see this show because it made me cry. I know I need to take care of myself for Nora and Sean and me - I want to be around a long time. AND I know my family has a history of heart attacks (of course only if cancer doesn't get you first) and high blood pressure - one strike already against me. 

I can't sit around and get all down about how I screwed up the summer with my over eating and what not - that is just stupid

Today I ran for 36 minutes and walked for 19 minutes. Yesterday I ate healthy and I am on track doing the same today. 

All the other shit going on around here (Nora's school issue) is NOT an excuse to hurt myself by over eating. That all will work out in time. My time is limited and I will get off 6 pounds between now and October 22. 

Changing the time of TOPS meeting changed my weight but the truth I was just messing around with the scale by running right before weigh in and not eating/drinking until afterwards so it wasn't a true weight. My true lowest weight was probably 3 - 4 pounds more. So there I have confessed my sin....

so, basically I gained 10 pounds this summer - so what? I will lose it before this year is over I am determined. 

Trips, holidays be damned! The food will always be there so there is no reason to eat it all of it all of the time and if we have our way we will get our new home in Hawaii where I can get manapua and tuna fish salad sushi when I feel like it fits in my meal plan. Until then I won't die if don't eat a ton of it on  our trip AND for that matter on other outings this fall. I can do them and still be successful. I mean yesterday I ate my cheese and still managed to do okay - portion control is what it is all about. 

So, right now I need to tough it out and be on the ball every day until Camp Trinity (Sept 25) and then when I am there watch the food and pack our own as needed so that I am not tempted by the snacks but cut myself some slack too and then get back on the horse after Camp is over to carry me to Nora's birthday - one day of treats and then to our trip to PA and then Boo at the Zoo and then our departure to Hawaii. I will be down 6!