LoMac's Journal

Hey Ladies,

I'm sorry I disappeared, work upped their monitoring on the computers or so they say and so I figured why take the chance and DH has totally monopolozied the home computer so left me SOL. But now I have a laptop at home on less so I'm BACK!!!! I've been trying to catch up with everyone. You all been in my thoughts, I've missed it here.

Doing good, haven't lost much weight but feeling better so one step at a time right?!? Had second month's Lupron last week and side-effects are within the range of 'dealable'. Just a few hot flashes, more just generally warmer, face is breaking out, hair is drier and I'm TIRED! But all and all not too bad. Emotionally, well I had one breakdown a couple weeks ago, my close friend is pg with her 2nd, and another friend is tto. They're a week a part due dates, her second the others's 3rd child and get this.....typical....my friend "we had just started trying that month" and the other "found out 3 days before the vasectomy"!!!! Come freakin' on right! But once I got off the phone I cried for about 20 minutes most of which my DH just held me (he totally gets it now), the poured myself a big glass of wine and sat on the couch for the rest of the evening watching mindless TV (yelled at the TV once - some show where someone got pg WAY too easy - I have a tendancy to do that now - funny huh:0), so all and all I did pretty good. As I'm sure you all understand I can't say I'm not a little bitter, but it's far more balanced with the happiness I have for my friend. It's never easy though.