tinoslove's Journal

Yes..Im back.

I am lacking a bit of confidence and motivation for my weight loss. Part of it being that fact that Im moving back to my real home miles away from my boyfriend. I'm in love and so is he, we'l be together, we'll see each other every months until he moves down with me. Its only 6months. Six months of me biting my nails and losing weight(of course i will still be on a diet after the fact). I know a little dramatic but that is the way I feel for him.

I told myself I NEED MY LIFE TO CHANGE. I need to feel like my old self. The confident flirtacious one who didnt care about what rolls were there. I want to be healthy. God knows I really want to lose weight I've prayed everyday but praying and not giving effort doesnt help. Its me, its not God. I havent been disciplining myself and recognize that. When i move back home with my sister who also joins us here in dailystrength, we are going tranform our bodies and most importantly ourselves.

I think its time to let go of all anguish and resentment that we confide in food. Most ppl eat when they are depressed I eat when Im nervous. Which is the majority of the time. I bite my nails so I dont eat and when Im an extreme nervous wreck I cave and eat til i cant. This is not an everyday thing but it has been a contribution to my unsucess(if such a word)

I spoke to God and he said to me this time its for real. And you know what I trust HIM. This time Im going to do it for real. No more playing, no more laziness, no more procrastination. Im going to lose weight for me and no one else.