boomertoo's Journal

I DID PRETTY GOOD "CONTROLLING MYSELF"....... IF I MUST SAY SO MYSELF! THOSE 'FULLBARS'........ ACTUALLY DO SEEM TO BE WORKING FOR ME! BUT....LETS NOT GET AHEAD OF OURSELVES! ;)  I'LL GIVE IT ANOTHER DAY AND SEE IF IT MAKES ME FEEL FULL TODAY...... LIKE IT DID YESTERDAY! (JUST IN CASE IT WAS A FLUKE!)

I LOST ONE POUND! NOW...I KNOW THAT'S NO BIG DEAL.... BUT HEY! IT'S A START AND EVERY POUND DOWN..... IS WAYYY BETTER....... THAN A HALF POUND GAINED!!!! :)

 LAST NIGHT WAS VERY COLD OUT! EVEN HAD TO TURN SOME HEAT ON IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS! GO FIGURE!!! HERE IT IS THE FIRST OF JUNE ALREADY AND INSTEAD OF USING AIR CONDITIONING......I HAD TO TURN UP THE HEAT! BUT.....THAT'S NEW YORK WEATHER FOR YOU! AS THE OLD SAYING GOES....................'IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE WEATHER.....WAIT A FEW MINUTES.......IT WILL CHANGE!"

I HAVE SOME HOUSEWORK TO DO TODAY AND HOPEFULLY I'LL BE ABLE TO GO SEE MY BEST FRIEND.... BEFORE SHE RETURNS TO SOUTH CAROLINA!

SHE HAD TO COME FOR HER DAUGHTER'S BURIAL! GOD ALMIGHTY! THAT MUST BE HARD! HAVING SOMEONE DIE IN THE WINTER!! YOU HAVE TO SUFFER THROUGH THE CALLING HOURS AND FUNERAL SERVICES BUT.......... YOU DON'T GET 'CLOSURE' BURIAL........ UNTIL THE SPRING( WHEN YOU CAN ACTUALLY DIG IN THE SOIL)! ALL THAT TIME....YOU WAIT...KNOWING (IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND) THAT THE DAY WILL COME..... WHEN YOU HAVE TO RELIVE..... ALL THOSE HORRIBLE, PAINFUL FEELINGS ALL OVER AGAIN! AND.......TO LOSE A PARENT IS ONE THING!! BUT.........TO LOSE A CHILD!

 IT MUST BE HEART BREAKING! I JUST CAN'T EVEN IMAGINE!!! ALL I CAN DO IS PRAY FOR HER AND HER FAMILY AND BE THERE IF EVER SHE NEEDS TO TALK ! ...... I WILL CRY WITH HER AND I WILL LAUGH WITH HER .........BECAUSE SHE IS (AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN )...MORE LIKE A SISTER TO ME...THAN A FRIEND!

WELL....IT'S ABOUT THAT TIME AGAIN! TIME FOR ME TO CLOSE! TAKE CARE EVERYBODY! BOOMERTOO