Loveyouall's Journal

I have so much going on, the move and all.  But I havnt talked about the sickness I feel everyday.   I go to bed everynight around 10-1030p,  Im on ambien cr, which last about 6hrs, I wake up about 430-5am,  the ambien has worn off.  I wake up to the horrific buzzin of my tinnitus,  my eyes wont open, because I havnt had enoug sleep,  my head has a lot of pressue, which seem to hang around all day,  I turn on my classical music, which after2 hours of lying in bed eyes wide shut,  I fall back asleep,  but I dont wake up till 11am and like today 100pm.  Whats up with that,  so Im missing my morning meds and take them when I get up.  I have a sick feeling all day,  I cant accomplish as much as I want to, energy gone,  loose things around the house, or forget where I put things,  my purse, my keys, my glasses.  my eft ear has such a horrible ache that I live with,  mri's showed nothing.  It takes extra effort for me.  maybe al the sleep is my depression going on right now, I dont know.  And most of all I dont feel like doing a whole lot of nothing which adds to getting my body moving around to get my circulation going.  This has been going on for a long time,  I ;fake; being happy at times.  Know support thru my family.    Still waiting on ssdi,   that makes me real sick and could get trnd down anyway.  I really feel ill.    Take 1 celexa in morning-depressio, 1-2 clonazapm a day-anxiety and abien cr at night.   any comments woud be helpfull.   Feel really like I dont exist, and feel like some kinda of alien with the bumblebeez constantly swarming  around me at high speed and just screaming.