Serenity72's Journal

... and I wanted to leave a message for her on my parent's answering machine.

She passed away last year in April and she was cremated.  My dad put her ashes in a beautiful blue flowered vase (with a top) that she absolutely loved. 

Well, my dad is away on a trip visiting family in Alberta, so I know he wasn't there... and they have this old fashioned answering machine that when you don't pick up the whole house can hear the message.

My mum's urn is sitting on the tv... and I could picture the vase...the quietness of the house before I placed the call.

I got choked up because I was pretending to call for my father...when in fact, I was thinking of mum the entire time. I didn't want dad to think I was freaky for leaving a message for her.   I then pictured her vase again... on the tv... the quietness of the house resuming once again once I hung up the phone.

I then went and drank a bottle of wine... -- felt good but I've been suffering a headache most of the day now. 

Sigh. I miss her.