Getting to know myself has been a great adventure. So far, I have been sober 2 years this time. I will never forget my last night drunk or how small and alone I felt. I had finally gotten what I asked for, "If everyone would just leave me alone..." HATED IT!!!!
Getting to know myself has been a great adventure. So far, I have been sober 2 years this time. I will never forget my last night drunk or how small and alone I felt. I had finally gotten what I asked for, "If everyone would just leave me alone..." HATED IT!!!!
Human doings and learning how to live instead of survive.
Human doings and learning how to live instead of survive.
3 hugs given, 2 hugs received, 1 journal post
Newbee1 wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for November 20, 2009 9:24am
I am sooooo tired, been just working and sleeping, mostly working. My bronchitus is got me full tilt…
November 20, 2009 9:24am
I am sooooo tired, been just working and sleeping, mostly working. My bronchitus is got me full tilt boogie so I sound like shit coughing alla time. …
November 15, 2009 12:29am
Well, I had a really nice visit with my son, nice to have a little money to spend too. Turns out that unless something comes in at work I have a day …
November 13, 2009 8:56pm
Gratitude list
1. Green paisley flannel sheets warm from the dryer!!
2. Get to sleep in till 8:30 tomorrow.
3. Seeing my son …
November 12, 2009 7:41pm
What if the the thinking that you think is pretty good today is actually like that really cool hair cut ya got in the 80's and looking back it …
November 12, 2009 7:37pm
Had a good day at work, not eight hours but close enough, got paid to watch TV for three hours waiting for movers. Am going to treat myself to a nap …
just read your story.......OMG sounds like something out of a horror movie! My heartfelt prayers are with you.
I am in recovery for gambling, cocaine, booze, sex, food, PTSD, childhood abuse of every nature, violence inflicted upon me and that I have inflicted, I am a rape survivor a few times over and have been near beaten to death by at least three people who claimed they loved me. I have dealt drugs worked for bikers running a whorehouse, seen people beaten almost to death, shot, stabbed and a few left unconscious, now if there is a soul out there who could win my trust and convince me of unconditional love, what a roller coaster ride he would have to endure for me to feel safe.
The world is so empty if one thinks only of mountains, rivers, and cities; but to know someone here and there who thinks and feels with us, and though distant, is close to us in spirit, this makes the earth for us an inhabited garden.
-- Goethe
Nice photos. Doggy kissing Kitty cracked me up! lol
Hope you're having a great weekend!!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyy spreading the joy of milkshakes love it!!
Same as everyone here,I guess. I drank till I could drink no more and lost everything I cared about.
Am a 44 yr old woman dealing with a lifetime of horrors. I isolate a lot because I feel awkward for the most part except when I am at work. Mostly I feel like a little motherless child in a grown up world.
I have a problem with marijuana that I need to address, I have had enough now. Sept 29 will be day one.
I left the man who repeatedly beat me and strangled me May 17th 2004 and I am still feeling the effects of his abuse. It began with my mother when I was little and it ended with him! Never again!
