Journal Entry for February 3, 2009
February 3, 2009 6:38am
hey every1 i have a confeesion... I HAVE FALLEN 4 A FICTIONAL CHARACTOR by the name of Edward Cullen... his eyes r like fire they way they burn his …
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zbabyrachyz 
8:34am, May 7, 2009
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About Me
zbabyrachyz
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About Me
I am a typical girl i love my friends i love partying and having fun above all that thou i love my beautiful son Lucas. He is my precious angel my world and the reason why i am still alive. Im also married to my primary school crush Ben. we have been together for 4 years and separated twice we have been through thick and thin and yet we r still in love i guess Kelly Clarkson woz right "my life would suck without you" haha i have anger issues and can turn into a pyscho bitch if i get pushed enough i am on anti-depressants as i suffer from depression i woz abused by my step father from the ages of 9 till 19 but he got wot he deserved now its me who is laughing MWA HA HA HA HA
I am a typical girl i love my friends i love partying and having fun above all that thou i love my beautiful son Lucas. He is my precious angel my world and the reason why i am still alive. Im also married to my primary school crush Ben. we have been together for 4 years and separated twice we have been through thick and thin and yet we r still in love i guess Kelly Clarkson woz right "my life would suck without you" haha i have anger issues and can turn into a pyscho bitch if i get pushed enough
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Interests
Music: christina aguilera, rihanna, britney spears, timbaland, lady gaga, usher, justin timberlake, the presets, the potbeleez, chris brown, miley cyrus, fallout boy, danity kane, sam sparro, sneaky sound system, jonas brothers, pussycat dolls. Tv Shows: hannah montana, a shot at love with tila tequlia, maury povich, the tyra banks show, the simpsons, family guy, whose line is it anyway, saturday night live, the suite life of zack and cody, the replacements, my super sweet 16 General: listening to music, singing/dancing by myself, writing poetry, hot bubble baths, my babushka pjs, bed, sleeping dreaming, my son, my husband (sometime) My Hates: abuse, infidelity, jealous immature bitches, sluts, pedifiles, prostitutes, assholes
Music: christina aguilera, rihanna, britney spears, timbaland, lady gaga, usher, justin timberlake, the
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MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
January 22, 2009 6:22am
hey every1, so its 10 past9 ona thursday nite lacas is bed ben is at work and im mucking about on the internet im downloading some new episodes of …
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rachy is back and i'm ok
January 15, 2009 6:26am
hey evryone i know most of were worried that i ended my life but no i didnt... ben and i separted 4 a month in a hope that things will b better lucas …
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i feel sick...
September 10, 2008 4:29am
Okay so ben has fucked off 2 dales (im shocked its not aaron) cowincadinkcaly dales girlfriend is down from america we were meant 2 b going out 4 …
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CHRISTINA AGUILERA'S NEW SONG!!!
September 9, 2008 9:37pm
FINALLY MUH GIRL CHRISTINA AGUILERA HAS A NEW SONG SHE ROCKS
Keeps Getting Better
Step Back! gonna come at ya fastI'm …
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Ray of Sunshine
sending some sunshine your way, oxTia
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Flower
Hope your doing ok? oxTia
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Hug
Hi Rach, great to see you here, oxTia
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Hug
Hi Rach, I hope your ok, love and hugs, Tia
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Support Groups
Close Infidelity
have experienced infidelity i kno how bad it hurts im here 4 moral support
Close Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective Disorderive had depression pretty much most of my life
Treatments
- Meditation Not Working
- trying
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- trying
Open Sexual Abuse
i have been sexually abused in my younger years by my step father
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
4 a year i was abused sexually, physically, emotionally and mentally abused by my step father i have tried everything 2 get ova it but it wont work i need help, im now emotionally abused by my husband
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- i have told ppl wot happened and the didnt really help
- Leave Working / Worked
- i ran off but im still getting flashbacks and nightmares im also scared of seeing him out in the street
- Music Working / Worked
- greqt escape
Open Anger Management
after being abducted, raped, abused and hurt ova and ova again i feel so angry not only at myself 4 making so many mistakes but i take it out on my loved 1s
Open Pregnancy
im 20 and pregnant with my first child i have 2 weeks 2 go and IM FREAKING OUT...
Open Healthy Sex
feeling deeply sexually frustrated... but wont have an affair
Treatments
- Patience Not Working
- its been a week we went from sex everynite 2 once a week slowly heading 2 none at all
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
i have ocd my house has 2 b clean all the time i need 2 have a shower at 9pm everynight
Open Video Game Addiction
my husband spends 24/7 playing world of warcraft his mate calls up everday and they spend an hour or so talking about it he comes home 2 his game rather then 2 me
Open Post Partum Depression
just had a baby feeling so hurt hubby not helping just making it worse
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- music solves everything in my life i sit in the bath listen 2 my music and just breakdown
Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)
have a newborn son not really coping need help
Treatments
- Breast Feeding Working / Worked
- only does it 4 a while
- Patience Working / Worked
- im losing my patience
- Research Working / Worked
- im learning
Open Personality Disorders
personality is messed up
Open Self-Injury
used 2 cut now wanting 2 do it again
Treatments
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- kinda worked 4 a little while
Open Family Issues
not coping being a mother and a wife
Open Single Parenting
not a single parent but husband isnt helping me so im going 2 live like a single parent
Open Shyness
used 2 b very very very shy and i still am
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- like 2 let the feelings out
Open Anxiety
suffered anxiety all my life
Open Stress Management
one seroiusly stressed out female
Treatments
- Anger Management Working / Worked
- joined that group
- Music Working / Worked
- music always helps
Open Bipolar Disorder
im feeling great 1 mintue then next im breaking down
Open Loneliness
i have been feeling this way 4 so long i have no friends
