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litttlekitty 
5:16pm, September 26, 2008
Hey I has been a long time since I have wrote in this and I have come a long way in the aspect of my treatment. Now, I am seeing a therapist, dietitian and a lady that do another treatment. I felt like that I am going to give up because I am not improving in anything. I know it will be a long way but I am soooo sick of it. Sometimes the more I think of it the more I do it. Also I have gained so much weight . I can not stop B and P all day sometimes. It make me sick of my house because I get scared to come home cause that the place that I do it. I and my boyfriend always argue. I am not sure if we argue because I am in the bad mood due to B and P or if it is I B and P because we argue.
Lately I wish that I lost all my memory and forget that I am bulimia and lived a normal life . I have no idea what a life will be like without vomitin, i definitly need some help from anyone about their recovery. i hate it . i have discovered that one of my boggest stimulies t B and P is when i am on the computer or when i am watching tv or reading. when i do it i go in to this trans mood and forget baout everything around me.
when am i going to stop?
