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litttlekitty 
5:16pm, September 26, 2008
i am going restart this goal, if i achieve this i am going to make this goal do not binge for two da
Friday, September 26, 2008 |
Friday, September 26, 2008 |
doing good , i just had some crakers this moring so for the next 24 hours i am planning not to have much to eat, i will go back to sleep now, and then wake up and have some more crakers like 4 pieces and a lemon juice. for lunch i will have some chicked sushi. i will not have dinner tonight because i have to drink with my friends tonight and alcohol is soo much calories.i will consume way more than what i will need today dute to the drinking, i already had about 1000kj and i will have 2000kj for the sushi and 400 for the crakers. tonight i wiull be dribkngn about 10000 worth of alcohol because i am planning to drink choc baylyes .. mmm i can not wait to go out and drink. i have not done that for sooooo long and also to see my friends. i have been by myself for too long I am startin gto talk to my self like i am crazy woman
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Hey I has been a long time since I have wrote in this and I have come a long way in the aspect of my treatment. Now, I am seeing a therapist, dietitian and a lady that do another treatment. I felt like that I am going to give up because I am not improving in anything. I know it will be a long way but I am soooo sick of it. Sometimes the more I think of it the more I do it. Also I have gained so much weight . I can not stop B and P all day sometimes. It make me sick of my house because I get scared to come home cause that the place that I do it. I and my boyfriend always argue. I am not sure if we argue because I am in the bad mood due to B and P or if it is I B and P because we argue.
Lately I wish that I lost all my memory and forget that I am bulimia and lived a normal life . I have no idea what a life will be like without vomitin, i definitly need some help from anyone about their recovery. i hate it . i have discovered that one of my boggest stimulies t B and P is when i am on the computer or when i am watching tv or reading. when i do it i go in to this trans mood and forget baout everything around me.
when am i going to stop?
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Not sure you ever totally recover cause we always watch what we eat and are obsessed with our bodies. But you can stop B/P. It will take some seeking deep within your soul and get to the feelings and emotions that need to be felt that you kept bottled up so long. they need to be felt so you can deal with them with healthy behaviors. like writing and/or jounaling actual feelings, such as, anger, sad, hurt, shame, ... then let yourself feel them without B/P. that will give them less power over you. When i think about food, i get busy, physically, doing something, anything, whether it's cleaning or just going for a walk. Try to get out of house if you can. If not, try exercising in your house. Just know that you're not alone in this. I'm here for you
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That doesn't sound like good healthy eating. And, feeling your body with alcohol instead of food, doesn't not sound healthy either. You need to nourish your body and mind. I'm not getting on you, I just worry and care about your well being.
hja
have fun! dw about crazy eating at the mo after u have had a gd nite out u need to eat healthier though like veges fruit a bit from all food groups all we can do as try our best eh! its hard i know to eat properly if it were easy we wudnt b here goin on about it
Soph827