vdank's Journal

ive been such a bitch lately and its just its at the back of my mind again.. it wont go, its haunting me. only b and t knwo about it because i cant bring myself to talk about it to a or c idk why maybe its just because they havent noticed that im down or upset or somethings bothering me..so i dont mention it to them..

i release you grandpa. im so sorry. you have no idea. so incredibly sorry. i still cant forgive myself.. feb is going to be one hell of a month.. its not feb already and im thinking about it everyday.

maybe when i go to yogourtland with t tomorrow we can talk and i can feel better. and i can forgive t also..

im goign to ask b why he acts like an imature freak towards a.. mentioning the third wheel thing to her in the car today was kidna rude.. but idk         send love.

 the only thing that makes me happy honestly is b. going to the park today and jsut sitting on the swings as b pushed me made all of my worries disappear as i felt liek a child all over again im glad we went because that made me deff push it more to the back of my mind almost to forgetting it.. he and i had a really nice talk about swim and school and just random things im glad that were like this now. time flies so quickly when im with him 

yayyyy a and i finally got our warheads!! they were soooooooooooooooo good <3333 

last final tomorrow stat.. i trust that i will do well i trust the process of life i trust that i know everything on it. 

a im still trying to understand why you seem to always look for flaws in ty rather than accepting him as he is.. like today you mentioned he was really immature.. but isnt that jsut who he is. idk i guess he might change from being aroudn people but doesnt everyone?  idk im trying to understand it and i believe the answewr will come to me. is it because your scared? or what.. idk if its a protection ploy or if its really true. i send you love.