vdank's Journal

i feel miserable. it seems as if ive somewhat spiraled out of control from when ive got home from norcal.. i feel lsot from myself and unsure to as if who i am as a person for the past 3 days ive been wanting to just sit at home yet i dont. i think im doine with hannging out until breaks over. i apologize to everyone for my mistakes and my actions for the past week. a has been such a good friend to me taking care of everyone nye i hope she had fun also tho.. b im tired of you and you getting drunk i dont think i can hadnle it anymore. and ive only been around it like twice. a i understand hwo your unable to handle it and i thank you for being there for him. you truly are such a good friend and i am thankful everyday to have you as my friend and for you to call me your friend.

g and i are talkign again. not much but we are. so i guess thats beter. m your my good friend i love you more than anything i send love to you and hope that you trust the process of life because there will be a girl for you just wait. b i send love to you tho im starting to feel likea fwb rather than a gf but i dont know what a gf is suppose to feel like.. so ??? you say things such as your so beautiful or your so pretty and idk it kind of pisses me off to be quite honest because it seems like b is just saying it to get into my pants.. i release that annoying feeling and anger. the past 3 days was teh first time ive found b annoying. i still like b i do k&d dont think i like b whatsoeverr.. and maybe what they said to me is getting to me and getting in my head. i release all negative thoguhts. some of the things b says to me just pokes me in the wrong way maybe he just doesnt know how to word the things he meant to say idk..

i send love to a c d b m t g v k d

i release all negative energy and thoughts from my body. perhaps i shall run today.