vdank's Journal

today is a good day hah i just found out g told t that g wants more "alone time" haha im sorry  but if you have to tel lyour boyfriend you want more "alone time".. theres a problem. t keeps ditching g  to hang with other friends which i find amusing. some relationship that is... which reminds me i saw t g w m all yesterday which was slightly awkward but not. for soem reason i had no need to talk to t which was weid and t noticed im sure.. but whatev

j might get a job at the store [: that will be sweeeeeeeeeeetttttt. idk j is just good looking thats about it. haha j and i dont have good convos and that is what i need 

b and i had a like 5 hour phone conversation.. which was veryyy nice. we talked about everything pet peeves, facts about ourselves, i felt kinda bad tho because i kept b up until like 4 in the morn ahha and b had wrestling at 6.30am uhoh.. :/ i hope b does well. it makes me content that b and i are normal again.. and that b is makign an effort. well kidna idk. we still kinda need to talk about "that" tho but i want to do that in person so idk. b is goign to call me when he gets back from wrestling.. so sevenish.. but i dont think im gonna bail on c i cant i wont. im gonna give b a second chance.. cuz i alwys do but im gonna let b know that if things get tough b cant just run and bail on me.. maybe b and i just needed a break idk but now thats over and done with we need to move forward or on

last night when b and i were talking about who we have had good covnos with and i said t b was ike i knew you were gonna say that.. idk what that means but there was a twinge of jealously i think 

 a is a bit upset at me .. idk i just feel distant from a idk if its a's doign or my doing.. but i just do i apologize a i love you your my bestfriend you mean the world to me. i just feel that a preaches to me all the time and i cant preach back.. but well get pass it i know wer can.

 hanigng out with mt and h and tehir friend n last night was sooo much fun. n was really good looking andhad a sexy accent.. n will be here for about 3 motnhs so i should see him alot

i saw mt mom lastngiht and it was really nice i missed her and was glad that she hugged me idk it was relaly nice of her. shes  such a nice person. im excitied for their christmas party.. that should be fun especailly if im in town.