vdank's Journal

i feel like the stupid fuckign step sister that people are embarassed of. its so annoying its like i cant hang out with the group of people anymore cuz god forbid theyre seen with me or soemthing. i feel so inferior and theres a growing sense of hate that i feel and anger. i feel so angry towards some people. everyone has to lie when theyre like with me i feel a strong sense of inferiorness taht is quite annoying. and the funny thing is i dont really have a problem with anyone that has a problem with me..

 b your so annoying i dont get you. i like you. i want to hang out with you. you come over on friday and we kinda talk but its like theres an elephant in the room.. but yah.. and then i text you the next day and you totttally dont text me back.. whats your deal whats your problem i need to release you i should release you but i cant. i mean its not even that big of a deal but i want to be friends with oyu i dont understand why you cant just talk to me. but then again its not like oyu ever really talked.. so idk idk what to do about you or anything. i want to apologize to you and say sorry and make it better but i'm so angry i want you to apologize to me for nto fuckign talking to me for a week and still barely talkign to me. im trying to understand it and i know that this is prob jsut miscommunication but i dont want to come off as needy or clingy or desperate but at the same time i want to make this better..

i wish i had an easy button.. 

 i feel so alone like i cant tell anyone this. i feel i should just keep to myself