vdank's Journal

i currently feel extremly stressed and anxious.

but its ok because i release that negative energy.

i send love to myself.

i talked to mt the other day and he was saying how he feels more confident and happy now that hes hanging out with his new friends. that makes me so happy that he has found a crowd that treats him how he should be treated. after all this time. its about time.

just like its about time for me to let it all go. yet i cant. but i shall because its not even an option its just something i have to do. to fully feel better

this weekend was fun. but i need to stop. i keep running around kissing boys and i cant do that. its a no no. i dont even really know why im doing it but i am. i need to stop. thats not even who i am as a person so why am i doing it? its ridiculous now. maybe this is my way of getting over it. i need to find a new way because i dont like this way even if it is helping

i need a break from things

 from everyone im starting to feel that i lack alone time. that im being judged maybe because im judging myself. this isnt who i am. 

i am vibrant i am loving i am beautiful. i love love love myself. i am present. i trust the process of life.

maybe i just need a bit of laguna loving.