vdank's Journal

my head is spinning i feel liek im suffocating im confused idk what to do anymore. your arms which used to comfort me feels like no comfort whatsoeever i feel like your going to end up hurting me. you feel distant you feel like you dont want to be with me anymore and just that feeling is making me push you away even more. the thought of you hugging me makes me want ot push you away i feel suffocated and my feelings cant be said everything is a blah i lvoe myself im tired so tired so tired. i jsut dont want to do this anymore im so tired im tired of feeling guilty of feeling bad for hurting you ive stopped telling you things because it jsut makes you feel bad and i dont wnat to do that it kinda feels like my connection wiht you is gone and lost. what used to feel like such nice company feels liek a burden. i feel like a nagging burden. im sick and tired of being disappinted but then again i guess when you say dinenr and like a movie tonight it isnt really a set plan yet.. i just cant comprehend how youve become who you are in my mind. once a loving person that i could depend and count on. i have lost that i dont know what i view you as but its like a person i dont know anymore. my expectations about little things such as getting a text or a call i dont like being disappointed and i keep getting tha feeling. ive lost trust in you i feel like the things you tell me arent true that you say it cuz you think i want to hear it. im so confused. i feel like this is the end

angy i love you and send you love. idk what is wrong with me you are such a good frined and i know it idk why idk what is going on with me.