Journal

This is my first journal entry and I'm disoriented to the whole website. I feel like my mother when she's on the computer- squinty eyes, mumbling to myself and confused as hell! I'm hoping that this site has a lot of information, as I'm constantly looking for a real "answer" or a quick fix. I'm afraid there really isn't one. I'm just sitting and waiting and doing as told, feeling really helpless. If a doctor told me I couldn't have chocolate for the rest of my lifetime I would gladly accept if it meant I'd be HPV free. I wish I would turn back time! It's been a year with diagnosis and I'm losing patience.

I just picked up a few different things from the health food store and I'm excited- including folic acid with vitamin B, fish oil and vitamin C capsuls (the owner of the store told me the chewable vitamin C tablets can hurt your teeth!). I'm going to give it a month or so until my next pap and hope the results are better this time around. I stopped smoking a few months ago, but honestly it's a struggle every day. I'm still smoking about 1 cigarette a week (I slip...errrrr) but after joining this site I'm really motivated to quit for good. considering speaking to my ob about the new med to curb nicotine cravings.