Journal

i dont get on here that much anymore as im never around, always out somewhere, things have been good lately although my mom has been ill and is in an out of hospital with scans i feel shes not telling me the full extent of what is wrong with her and im worried i know she has too have a histeretomy but i dont understand why as she isnt explaining things shes obviously trying too protect us but i want too know whats going on i worry bout her

here i am again feelin like shit a ex mate of mine has been slagging me off and saying some of the worst things i pretend too everyone its okay but its really hurtful, i mean some stuff is just below the belt nastyness and i havent even said ought bout her until i retaliated which ofcourse has blown outta proportion, and too top it all off a so called mate is now dating a girl who she knew i was into and seein at one point who left me for a guy, they both totally blanked me all nite then decided too rub the fact they were together in my face, so messed my night up a bit when all i want is too enjoy myself, and my best mate dont get me wrong he cheers me up but i cant seem too talk too him theres no one i can really talk too bout this so it makes matters worse ppl dont seem 2 understand it :(

since bin on ere..well not alot bin going onclean off drugs now completly so thats good women well sore subject lol but im workin on it lol